// The Confusion of Summer is Confusing, and Leaves You Bored!
This part of the summer is truly when the confusion kicks in to summer. How so? Well, I was told that we might be going to the beach on Wed. It is that day today and I have no clue what's going on, and people want me to play hockey. What to do? I really don't know. The summer definitely has it's times like these, and it confuses the crap out of me, because I easily get confused. Another thing is I never have a good tow course meal. My parents leave no food in the house so I pretty much starve. Being hungry really sucks too! Especially when your waiting to find out if were going to the beach.
I guess it comes back to me being out of the loop in a way. I think. It always seems I'm the last person to know about things and I'm pretty much doing nothing all day so anyone can call me or anything. Sure, it does have to do with me being lazy and not calling people but I truly dislike phoning people. It's really weird, a Robson gene I'm guessing, because I hate calling people. I love getting phone calls, but calling no. Yes, another weird characteristic of me.
One thing that kind of made me a little disappointed was the camp cabins. When Matt, Nick and Dyllan wrote down who they wanted in their cabin, none of them put my name in. I mean, I am the rookie, it's not like I'm going to know everyone there.
Once again, I blame my absence in Richmond. I'm not in the neighborhood so no one comes to me house and says lets go out. I'm not in Richmond so the thought of involving me sometimes slips their mind, not because they don't like me, but because I'm too far away or they just simply forget. I'm not blaming my friends, I would never do that, it's just I sit hear bored in my house with nothing else to do but talk about my boredom.
So yeah I was bored last night and I couldn't get to sleep so I thought I would practice my golf swing. I ended up breaking the ceiling fan! Ha! Oh it was funny but I think I just broke the light bulb cause I replaced it and it works again. Oh well, that's what happens when your bored...
2 Comments:
hey matty, i dunno if ur ever gonna c this...but it's so tru about da ppl in richmond...i mean, i live here, and they dont even call me...ya...lame isnt it...but it's gooten to the point where i dont care if they call or not...dont get me wrong, they r ok ppl, but my life doesnt depend on them...i kno im a hermit...wow, first time declaring it in print...wild...anyways...so ya, i kno i am, and i dont mind, b/c im comfy where i am, and so wat if ppl dont call?...they missin out on somethin special...well, not really...b/c i AM quiet, i mean i hardly say anything around ppl...well, thats b/c wen ppl do talk they gossip, an di dont wanna do that...or i just dont kno how to small talk with ppl...but then u shouldnt have to small talk around friends...lets just leave it at "im not as outgoing as other ppl r"...i dunno how to make my thoughts matter...so they stay mine...there r so many things i wanna do in my life that im just so afraid to do...i am a coward...so now im two things: a hermit and a coward...but then again, i could end up like my backyard-next-door-neighbors...they party, get high, and blahblahblah( o, and i mention them now b/c at this very moment they r listening to the radio and they r playing "in the name of love" by u kno who)...wat im tryin to say is that they r outgoing and have lives outside of their house, but its not constructive...i mean they r killin themselves...but thats a whole other spew of words...matty? wat am i talkin about? o ya...so the ppl in richmond suck...not really, they just have their ideas on "how to hang out"...and ya, sometimes i miss 'em(not a whole lot, b/c again my life doesnt depend on 'em), but i sometimes wonder if they miss me, y'kno? its only after they havnt seen me after a couple of months do they call...i dunno...i kno that if things were diff in my childhood i wouldnt be sitting here right now, but i would b out doin somethin...i would have a life outside these four walls of my bedroom...but im not b/c it wasnt diff...i kno i can change, just dont kno where to get the motivation to do so...wow...im writing a whole lot of nothin...nothin thats worth anything to u anyways...i could delete...but im too lazy, plus, this post means that ive admited to the fact that i am a loser...gah! i keep goin off subject...anyways, i should b going...u have beter thigns to do with ur time than read my ramblings...
love&harmony
o, and theres no date, but i wrote this on sat. july 1, 2006
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