// Back Home

Don't know what I was looking for when I went home, I found me alone
And sometimes I need someone to say, "You'll be all right. What's on your mind?"
But the water's shallow here and I am full of fear, and empty handed after two long years

Another sunny day in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance to feel it

Back home I always thought I wanted so much more, now I'm not too sure
Cause sometimes I miss knowing someone's there for me and feeling free
Free to stand beside the ocean in moonlight
And light myself a smoke beneath the dark Atlantic sky

Another sunny day in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance, before you get a chance to feel it

Everybody here is living life in fear of falling out of line
Tearing lives apart and breaking lots of hearts just to pass the time
And the eyes get red in the back of your head, this place will make you blind
Put it all behind me and I'll be just fine

Another sunny day beneath this cloudless sky
Sometimes I wish that it would rain here
And wash away the west coast dreaming from my eyes
There's nothing real for them to see here

Another starry night in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance, before you get a chance to feel it

Very good song, recommend to all. Sometimes I feel like this? Well, some parts at least. Still, I love this song right now...

// Shout Out To The Plumb Who Votes For Pedro

I would like to take this time to congratulate Kelsey on her recent achievement for getting a job as a missionary to South Africa! Correct me if I'm wrong... I don't know all the details. Anywho, let me stay on topic by saying...

YAY for Kelsey!!

In my mind, missionary work can be the hardest job. You give up everything. If you are called by God this is an awesome incredible job... I can't believe your going Kelsey! I'm so excited for you! I myself have always wanted to go on a missions trip, and one day I hopefully will. But a full time missionary is hardcore! Again, I am so proud of you Kelsey! Your an inspiration to us all to GO! We must chat one day, not on the phone, and not on msn!

GO Kelsey! GO!

// You captivate me, saturate me.

Everyone else here has pretty much already said it, but I can't say it enough: Historymaker was amazing. Watching half a dozen of OUR OWN being slain... that just did it for me.

More details and photos coming soon.

// EVERYTHING.

history maker was incrediblely coool. i had fun but oh my goodness i am soo pooped.. even today yes. Delirious was better than i had ever expected. what else is new.. oh yeah i had no idea what to call my post so yeah. oh yeah my friend asked me questions about god and hm, so that was nice. that was coool. i REALLY want rollerblades i remember about 2 summers ago i used to go like everyday that was fun. OH OH .. and a friend i've been praying for says he might want to go to church and yeah thats just REALLY good. i.. P.U.S.H. yup. what else have i got to say.. oh yeah i am absolutely obsessed over DDR. i do not know why but i am. mainly because its soo fun. OH yeah nightmarket is open, yeah i'm one of those freaks that like going to things like that and go there expecting to buy lotsa stuff but only ends up buying food. yup thats me. oh yeah i ate lotsa like UNHEALTY food at hm so .. when i got home like at 3am i puked. it was soo DISGUSTING. but kinda coool.. it was green LOL. haha. yessssssss. oh i ate ALOT of chocolate chip cookies today which is also very unhealthy. oh delirious came to vancouver tonight and theeeen hilsong is comming next weeeeeek. wow huh? anyone going? i want to.. but prolly wont have time. PROVINCIALS are soon.. gotta get studying. today i'm sooo lazy i was late for schoool. i feel so unproductive.

// Historymaker 05

First of all let me appologize for leaving without posting... yea, I left in a hurry... anywho, here we are...

So to finish up are last words Kevin is here with his guitar and he's going to sing us one last song, take it away Kevin...

I am a one way motorway
I'm the one that drives away
Then follows you back home
I am a street light shining
I’m a wild light blinding bright
Burning off alone

It's times like these you learn to live again
It's times like these you give and give again
It's times like these you learn to love again
It's times like these time and time again

I am a new day rising
I'm a brand new sky
To hang the stars upon tonight
I am a little divided
Do I stay or run away
And leave it all behind?

It's times like these you learn to live again
It's times like these you give and give again
It's times like these you learn to love again
It's times like these time and time again

You'll get it when you see it...

// Extremely loud and incredibly close.

A warning sign;
I missed the good part, then I realized.
I started looking and the bubble burst,
I started looking for excuses.

A warning sign;
It came back to haunt me, and I realized.
That you were an island and I passed you by,
And you were an island to discover.

Come on in:
I've gotta tell you what a state I'm in.
I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones,
That I started looking for a warning sign.

When the truth is, I miss you.
Yeah, the truth is, that I miss you so.
And I'm tired. I should not have let you go.
So I crawl back into your open arms.
Coldplay - Warning Signs

Something dawned on me today. I don't know why I've been worrying myself about the possibility of leaving BC for University of Alberta. Why would I move myself to a completely unfamiliar city to start school, when I can go to school here and keep my life as is? I'll go to Langara for two years and then I can transfer back into UBC. I mean, starting university or college is difficult enough, without having to completely rebuild your life and social circle. And granted, UBC is my first choice for first year, Langara can't be that bad. I'll end up in UBC eventually. And I can get my Masters there too. So why am I worrying so much? Why can't I settle for a college? I mess myself over sometimes.

The electrical storms tonight completely terrified me. I wasn't actually scared, but it reminded me how powerful God is. He shook the earth; he shook my soul with thunder. It was completely senseless the way He poured rain down and bellowed across the wind. Really. I just couldn't believe what was going on. It just started pouring down rain so badly. And I knew there was only one person strong enough to do that: God. Duh.

I like big storms.

// Most Bizarre Lunch:

Pita Bread dipped in cold left over white spot gravy with a luke warm can of coke, while listening to Baba O'Riley by the Who (very good pump up song, I do recommend)

Top that

// It's just around the corner.

There's plenty of time left tonight;
I promised I'd have you home before daylight.
We do the best we can in a small town,
Act like big-city kids when the sun goes down.
If it's not too late for coffee, I'll be at your place in ten.
We'll hit that all-night diner and then we'll see.
There are so many things I have to say,
And I'll stay up all night to hear about your day.
We do the best we can in a small town,
Act like kids in love when the sun goes down.
There's a love that transcends all that we've known of ourselves,
And I'll wait for it to come.
It's got to be strong to touch my heart through its shell,
And I'll wait for it to come.
Copeland - "Coffee"

Wait just a bit longer. And God'll show you things you never even imagined.

// Debate Historymaker

Someone give me a reason to go to historymaker, because right now i'm thinking "well, it's just a weekend, you can probably find some other way to entertain yourself"

Sure, it's not a weekend of entertainment, but I haven't been doing so well at youth. All I would want is an akward weekend. Tis a week for debating. The fact that Dave is going makes me think cool! Go Dave

// I'm So Emu Right Now; Things I'll Never Forget About Mainstage

1. When we made a sign by the guys change area called "Man Land" with a picture of a steak.

2. How Vince would always yell 'lets get naked!!!!' in an incredibly high pitched voice

3. When we changed the word 'emo' to 'emu'

4. "Dance! Anybody wanna dance!?"

5. The fact that I had 3 wives!

6. The donkey's head... the stupid donkey's head...

7. My bow with Mike; best bow ever!

8. The way we would light up the crowd

9. Andrea; The fact that she actually taught me to tap! I wasn't that great, but I tapped! I love you for it Andrea

10. "...annnnnnnnnnnnndddddddddddd SCENE!"

11. The fact that the girls would change right in front of you and they wouldn't care, and it was akward!

12. When the chairs with are names on them got little messages put on them, and Mike drew a bear on mine.

13. How Solley was so obsessed with Bagels and had his own belt buckle saying "Bagels"

14. How one day it would be freezing cold in the theatre, and the next it would be boiling hot!

15. Neil; he was so incredibly awesome. Made us sound so great.

16. How matter how hard you try, friends still let you down

17. Friday the 13th, my first and last sold out performance; best way to go

18. How we made Mr. Griffin teary during the ceremony.

19. When I won the award for 'biggest teddy bear'

20. When I thanked Ms. Welstien and Mr. Green for the great 2 years

21. When Mr. Green, not only shook my hand, but gave me a hug when we finished our last show.

22. How we become so tight, and how we were such an awesome group. I love you all. I'll never forget mainstage.

// Talkin' about my generation.

Is it worth it can you even hear me,
Standing with your spotlight on me?
Not enough to feed the hungry,
I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now.
In this sea of lonely,
The taste of ink is getting old.
It's four o' clock in the f**king morning.
Each day gets more and more like the last day.

Still I can see it coming,
While I'm standing in the river drowning,
This could be my chance to break out,
This could be my chance to say goodbye.
At last it's finally over,
Couldn't take this town much longer.
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be,
Now I'm ready to be free.

So here I am, it's in my hands,
And I'll savor every moment of this.
So here I am, alive at last,
And I'll savor every moment of this.

And won't you think I'm pretty,
When I'm standing top the bright lit city?
And I'll take your hand and pick you up,
And keep you there to so you can see.
As long as you're alive and care,
I promise I will take you there,
And we'll drink and dance the night away,
As long as you're alive.

Here I am,
I promise I will take you there.
The Used - Taste Of Ink

// Man, you really freak me out.

City streets at night can be so intimidating,
I'm not the toughest guy,
I gotta keep my eyes open.
You came out of nowhere.

Did I hurt you? Are you okay?
Can I buy you a drink?
What's the world coming to?
You came out of nowhere.

Man, you really freak me out,
I'm so afraid of you,
And when I lose my cool,
I don't know what to do.
I know you don't mean no harm,
Your just doing your thing,
But man, you really freak me out.

I'm gonna try to improve my manners.
Everyone! Yes, everyone is my friend!

I like being worried about new relationships. The feeling you first get when you start liking someone. The caution that you proceed with, for fear of dooming yourself to all those other past relationships. It's kind of exciting sometimes, y'know? The excitement about meeting someone new and the possibilities it brings.

That's not my current situation, but that's one of my favourite songs on the new Weezer CD and it's definitely something I think a lot of people can relate to. <3

// Yahweh

Take these shoes
Click clacking down some dead end street
Take these shoes
And make them fit
Take this shirt
Polyester white trash made in nowhere
Take this shirt
And make it clean, clean
Take this soul
Stranded in some skin and bones
Take this soul
And make it sing

Yahweh, Yahweh
Always pain before a child is born
Yahweh, Yahweh
Still I'm waiting for the dawn

Take these hands
Teach them what to carry
Take these hands
Don't make a fist
Take this mouth
So quick to criticise
Take this mouth
Give it a kiss

Yahweh, Yahweh
Always pain before a child is born
Yahweh, Yahweh
Still I'm waiting for the dawn

Still waiting for the dawn, the sun is coming up
The sun is coming up on the ocean
This love is like a drop in the ocean
This love is like a drop in the ocean

Yahweh, Yahweh
Always pain before a child is born
Yahweh, tell me now
Why the dark before the dawn?

Take this city
A city should be shining on a hill
Take this city
If it be your will
What no man can own, no man can take
Take this heart
Take this heart
Take this heart
And make it break

// Stay (Far Away, So Close!)

Green light, Seven Eleven
You stop in for a pack of cigarettes
You don't smoke, don't even want to
Hey now, check your change
Dressed up like a car crash
Your wheels are turning but you're upside down
You say when he hits you, you don't mind
Because when he hurts you, you feel alive
Hey babe, is that what it is

Red lights, gray morning
You stumble out of a hole in the ground
A vampire or a victim
It depend's on who's around
You used to stay in to watch the adverts
You could lip synch to the talk shows

And if you look, you look through me
And when you talk, you talk at me
And when I touch you, you don't feel a thing

If I could stay...
Then the night would give you up
Stay...and the day would keep its trust
Stay...and the night would be enough

Far away, so close
Up with the static and the radio
With satelite television
You can go anywhere
Miami, New Orleans
London, Belfast and Berlin

And if you listen I can't call
And if you jump, you just might fall
And if you shout, I'll only hear you

If I could stay...
Then the night would give you up
Stay...then the day would keep its trust
Stay...with the demons you drowned
Stay...with the spirit I found
Stay...and the night would be enough

Three o'clock in the morning
It's quiet and there's no one around
Just the bang and the clatter
As an angel runs to ground

Just the bang
And the clatter
As an angel
Hits the ground

// Matt and Kassi.

Rheba's play was really good, and i only took two pictures of it and more of Matt and kassi. haha. I just thought i'd post them.

Its kassi!


Its Matt!


Its Kassi again!


Its Matt again!


Its Matt and Dylan!


And VOILA! pics from the play :P.

// Shick quatro and the difficulties it causes while shving your legs

Some of you may have just read that title and thought; "burn the fag! Lets get our pitchforks and poke him!"No, no, no thats not how it is people. As some of you may be aware i've had some trouble with my bung knees. So I have to tape up the tendons on the top and bottom of my knees. But this athletic ive got hurts so much when you take it off. its like waxing but slow and tedious (ummm not that i'd know). So i used my shick quatro. yeah, thats right four blades baby! so you'd think it would be the ultimate shave. but no! having four blades on a razor just causes chaos. theres no where for the hair to go. and it gets all clogged up. So well its not a very effective shave. Oh and by the way...i didn't shave all my legs, just my knees. However i might have if my razor was any good. just kidding (i hope)

// Have you seen my love?

Have you seen my love?
Have you seen my love?
Have you seen my little girl
Oh have you seen my love?

All that I want is to be your friend
'Cause you're the only friend I've ever known
All that I need is our love - we agreed
That the two of us wouldn't be alone

In these faded old photographs
You can see how we smiled
I became a man in your arms
Now I'm helpless as a child

Have you seen my love?
Have you seen my love?
Have you seen my little girl
Oh have you seen my love?

There was a dream that we both used to share
And we swore we would never wake
Now the dream's a nightmare, and the truth, to be fair
Is that dreaming was the first mistake

Though we share the shame memories
And I swear that's her face
Did you bury the woman I love
And fall asleep in her space?

Have you seen my love?
Have you seen my love?
Have you seen my little girl
Oh have you seen
Oh have you seen my love?

// Props To Moms, Thanks That Was Fun

I'm learning. I'm yearning.
I'm burning all your stuff,
But that's not enough.
I'm faking that I'm aching:
Mistaking lust for love.

Thanks that was fun.
Don't forget, no regrets ('cept maybe one)

Did I scare you when I dared you?
I stared you in the eye and told you good-bye.
You mocked me. It shocked me,
When you walked me to the bus.

Thanks that was fun.
Don't forget, no regrets ('cept maybe one)
Made a deal, not to feel (God, that's dumb)

Everybody knows the deal fell through.
I was hoping I could just blame you.
When was it that I became so soft?

This sentimentality doesn't look good on me.
I thought that you would be begging to be with me.
I'm the one on my knees, blubbering,
"Please, let me stay".

Deflated and jaded. I hate it when you call
(which isn't at all)I've spoken, though broken.
Here's a token of my love.

Thanks that was fun.
Don't forget, no regrets ('cept maybe one)
Made a deal, not to feel (God, that was dumb)
Don't forget, no regrets ('cept maybe one)
Made a deal, not to feel.
Thanks that was fun.

Everybody knows the deal fell through... it just feels like this is my relationship with the youth group. But hey, thanks that was fun

// You're illegal and so am I.

Well, my birthday was yesterday and the show was last night and I had the best time EVER. EVER. We raised about $350 for Sunny Hill! I'm glad it did well. Anyway, it seemed like everyone there had fun, so I'm glad. Ingredients even played the Beatles' "Birthday Song" for me and I got to dance on stage! Hurrah! And I got gifts, hugs, and a chocolate birthday pie. But seriously, everything was just SO PERFECT. Best birthday EVER.

I'm so blessed to have friends like that. <3


This is the chocolate birthday pie that Ashley got me.
Everyone dug in with a fork because we had no plates.
'Cept Max. He dug in with his face. :D


Adrian walking through the crowd with his guitar.


Max pulling a Homer Simpson WHILE playing guitar.


This is Kasi and me. <3


Max: "You gotta punch it! Punch it!"

// Guys and multitasking

'ello 'ello. Well I go to an all boys school. *all the ladies scream and runaway, assuming I haven't showered in 7 months*. Yes, people from my experience I can tell you "Don't send your kids to single sexed schools, not healthy man!"
However, I have learn't some things while I was there. Such as the fact, that well, guys we suck at multitasking (or is it just the people in my school). Some examples.... theres this guy in my bball team who can not shoot a basketball while breathing at the same time, it's just so darn hard to co-ordinate the two actions. Then theres the guy who can't eat a bag of potato chips while looking up at the board for notes. Its like he's saying "well how are the chips going to go in my mouth, unless i can see them?"

This has nothing todo with multitasking, but some guys have competitions to see who can wear their physical education uniform the longest, without washing it. I think the record i at about 21 days. mmm mmm mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm tasty.

// Second Show Had Some Flow

I went into Thursday nights show angry, upset, disappointed, discouraged, and tired. To sum things up, I wasn't stoked. You MUST be stoked to do a good show! However, a friend gave some encouraging words and I went on. The show was still pretty good, but the audience was small, and we love to feed off the audience. Nevertheless, we got them going.

I came out of the show tired, full of joy, excited, and pleased! Only a show can flip your mood like that. PJ came to watch so after that, we went to Subway! He bought! I was even more pleased! We had a really good chat about the show, and graduation and what not, and it made me think of how close we really are... Wow... anywho

I'm super stoked about tonight. I'm rather tired, but the crowd is going to be huge. I can't wait for my bows! There going to rock! I have the best bow, come and see it! You'll understand afterwards. Even if you don't, you'll still have got to see me bow! I figure afterwards I can hang with whoever comes to see me (which will most likely be nobody) or I'm going to the beach with the cast. We're going to have some good times on the beach...

// Opening Night Rocked

Opening night was pretty much flawless, and my bow rocks! I bow with this guy Mike, and he plays this really cool character everyone loved too! And it was just the two of us bowing together which rocked!!! It was so awesome! I loved it!

The one disappointment almost everyone had family or friends to talk to afterwards. However I went home with nobody to talk to. Pressure is on my friends! When are you coming?

// It's Almost Time

Cue up some patriotic music, or something inspiring!

It is time. We are here, opening night it tomorrow. The show has come together. Here we go... Wow, it feels so good to be hard core professional! We get so much publicity and so much fame. It's really exciting. We got a letter from the Premier again! I mean, how many letters has the Premier given to you? (Not including tax related or something bad)

This is a big week... a week that I must treasure, for it will most likely be my last show possibly ever. My last professional show at lest (stuff with the church doesn't count. It's so far from mainstage it's not even funny!) The career choice I have picked doesn't show many signs of big acting roles. I don't want to quit now, but I don't know how I would get involved now. I think that this is the end of the line. Just like my high school career. With that, it brings a tear to the eye. Mainstage was awesome last year. It has been awesome this year, even though we haven't performed. You really can’t compare this program to anything else. It really is a great program. You become family almost.

Wow, this is really it... it is time to go onstage. After hours upon hours of extra time this hopefully is going to be a rocking show.

I put out this warning however. If none of you come to see my show, then I won't come to see you. I just still can't get over the fact that nobody came to see me. Nobody. Sorry, but the people I'm talking to, you all suck! Now that I have vented last years anger...

Here we go, enjoy the show!

// Matts Suprise

Lets just say that i have a big present planned for little matthew robson which im not shure he will like but im pretty shure he will if that makes any sense at all. lol

But. we shall see.

Its for ur b-day and i THINK people are chipping in or im just getting it myself which is MAD. lol.

but yes
bo-urns!

// My U2 Virginity Has Been SHATTERED!

It's Monday, the concert was on Friday, why have I not posted?!?! I don't think I have fully recovered from that awesome night of rock! Wow! I mean wow! I mean really wow! I don't think I ever want to go to another concert again because it will just be a let down, that's how good the concert was! Every U2 song is now a memory. Every time I listen to any of their songs I remember back to that awesome Friday night of rock. Matt Glynn was blown away, I was blown away. Let me start from the beginning...

I picked up Dyllan at 5pm. From this time until 1:30am there would be non-stop action and fun. The reason Dyllan joined me on the ride is because I figured he would like to see Matt too. Oh yeah! Crazy thing, Matt Glynn is the only guy who calls me Matty. Anywho, we got to the ferry terminal at about 5:43, and didn't wait very long for a very excited Matthew to join us in the car. We started the drive back to Richmond, cracking some jokes about how Richmond sucks, just to bug Dyllan, but he hates Richmond just as much so it doesn't work as well. Anywho, we dropped Dyllan off at the church and made sure we didn't stay long. We got to my house, and picked up the tickets and headed for General Motors Place, where we were about to have the experience of a life time.

We parked for $15, but it was close to GM Place and Matt paid so no complaints there. We both were starving and we didn't want to spend millions of dollars on expensive stadium food so we bought hot dogs outside GM Place, where we both majorlly burned the inside of our mouths. Yes, it still hurts. We make are way into GM Place, and it's the moment of truth. Did this scalper sell me fake tickets? We come up to the ticket taker, and we're good! Major relief, unlike poor PJ! Immediately it's time to stock up on U2 memorabilia. The line up was huge, and they had so much stuff! There were vintage t-shirts from like there War Tour back in the 80's for $100!! Wow, I love U2, but that shirt would have to be framed! Anywho, I got through at it was time to buy! Time for a mastercard commercial!

U2 T-Shirt $45
U2 Program $25
U2 Poster $10
3 U2 Pins (One for Stephanie, and I lost it) $9
1 Medium Coke $4
2 Hot Dogs $8
2 Cans of Coke $2

1 Night of awesome U2 Rock: Priceless

I didn't even use MasterCard. Can somebody add that up for me? How much money did I spend? Anywho, it was time for rock! After waiting for half an hour for U2 to come out, my dream came true. They opened up with The City of Blinding Lights, followed by Vertigo, and Elevation rocked! Bono got us singing along with it and oh man! It was so awesome! They had a ring around the stage that he would walk around and every once and a while Adam and the Edge would get up and start to walk around a bit! Poor drummer can't walk around though, but they got him out there too! It was so cool, with one symbol for one song! That rocked! Wow, and they had so many encores too. Just as you thought they were done they would come back on and they did that twice! That was awesome too! The DVD they film for the tour was done that night too! AMAZING! U2 must love us. Vancouver is officially the City of Blinding Lights!

After the concert, Matt and I had to sit down. It was so amazing and so mind blowing. I'll never forget that night. One of the best experiences I ever have had.

// I'm not convinced.

It's 4 AM. I totally don't feel any urge or need to sleep. I know I'm SUPPOSED to, but really. What IS sleep? Unconcious state of mind so that your body has more time to conduct cellular respiration, producing enough ATP to keep all your functions in check?

I SAY NAY.

Sleep is for the weak, that's what it is. When impulses decide to take a break from driving down those supercharged nerves; the potassium and sodium are at waiting outside the doors. When axons and dendrites stop holding hands long enough to quit being sweaty. And everyone is asleep, snuggled in their myelin sheath... The nodes of Ranvier represent the pauses in a silence that a snore causes.

IN A SECOND! LESS THAN A SECOND! MILLI!

How fast do they travel? How long do they sleep? Not long. Oh no, my friend. Not long at all. No time to rest! Time forges onward! ONWARD HO!

I recommend everyone read Charlie and the Glass Elevator, the sequel to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. No childhood is complete without it. No DERANGED childhood, that is. Is it possible that books be published on pages of paper made from ganja leaves? Hmm. All I know is that, there is some sort of plant in the process of paper-making. I will research this and post my findings at a later time and date.