// Don't you leave me. I have been saving smiles for you.

Well, I am crying,
You aren't trying,
And I am melting away.
I wait for the words on the tip of your tongue.
I'm only as good as the last one.
You decide and I abide,
As my song goes unsung.

This is how you know you are pathetic.
1. You keep your cell phone on all the time in case he tries to call.
2. You overreact and go into "emo kid" mode for an hour or so everyday that you don't see him.
3. You'd rather go to bed than stay awake 'cause at least you can dream about happy times.
4. You dug up your old Vanessa Carlton CD so that you could listen to "Pretty Baby" and be sappy about it.
5. Likewise, you've listened to Liz Phair's "Why Can't I?" about seven times on loop.

This is how you know school is going well.
1. You are actually looking forward to French class.
2. You are actually looking forward to Bio class.
3. You made flash cards for the parts and functions of an animal cell.
4. You actually want to get into arguments during Law class.
5. You finish all your homework the day it was assigned, even the reading that's due in a week.

This is how you know you miss the summer.
1. You drive down the street in someone's car with loud music blasting, but it really isn't as fun anymore.
2. You desparately want to float in the middle of a lake, on a matress with your three favourite people. Your only option is the bath tub.
3. You actually want to eat ice cream at DQ's now, but it's much too cold.
4. You automatically head for your flip flops, but then realize Chucks are a better idea if it's raining.
5. No more sleeping in. No more 10 AM wake up calls about what to do today.

These are the five people you miss seeing every day.
1. Dyllan.
2. Matt.
3. Nelly.
4. The Sedin Twins (aka Nick and Matt).
5. Anne. (But I still get to see her at school, that's why she's number 5.)

Needless to say, I think back-to-school blues are kicking in, big time. A lot of it, I think has a large deal to do with my bestfriend. Ahem. That is all I will say. But oh well. I'll deal. I'm overreacting as always, I think. Yeah, that's it.

Vanessa Carlton is pretty soothing. Piano, orchestra, sappy love songs. Yeah, that feels right.