// Thank God For Grandmothers

For those who have known me, my family does not like my step mom. My sister, brother, and me (and a couple other relatives too) don’t agree with her, really. Sunday was a horrible reminder of why I miss my mom so much.

Sunday was a day of interesting events. I had gone to bed at 1 in the morning, after watching some crappy movie and I was awake at 6:45, to go pick my sister up. Now, I went to bed at 1, not fall asleep so that is a short amount of sleep. After when I got home, I couldn’t fall back asleep so I played NHL 2004 until I decided to hit the shower. When I got out, my step mom left the house, and thank God. You can tell when she is in a bad mood. You can really tell! Yes, she was in a bad mood. So I waited for my dad to come home and we went to the train show! Yay train show! It actually was not as exciting in past years and I didn’t even buy anything! Shock! I know! So on the way home, I’m falling asleep, and my dad was tired too. We both were like let’s take naps when we get home! So we got home at 3 and I went to bed in my room. At 4 she woke me up saying that I had to re-vacuum or some stupid thing. I was still feeling really bad, and I wasn’t planning on leaving until 5, but we got into a huge argument. Very big.

The fight ended up with me getting called things I prefer not to hear, and was told things I didn’t want to know. Overall, lowering my self esteem. I ran out of the house before she could even look at me and made my way to the church 40 minutes earlier then expected.

On my way to the bus stop, I wanted to fall down and cry. I wanted to give up on life. I wanted out of the scene.

The beginning of church was no help. The large group was more irritating then helpful. After the service I started to sing with the band which was really fun! Like super duper fun!!

Now for reference, I have been told I can sing by mainstage, but I have never really tried in front of the youth group. But people were coming up to me and were like you should sing for us!

Was this just flattery? Or did I actually sing well? That was weird… I’m used to worshiping God, but being a leader? Both Andy and Lalaine were like you should lead.

Well, I’m going to try it out Friday, but it feels like I’m putting someone out of a job. But it was fun, just feels weird.

Nobody except for Petko and Nelly went out for food so whatever. It was a better ending. When I got home, I said Hi to my step mom. Since then, that’s about the only thing I’ve said to her, hi. I’ve been easily avoiding her, and with help from having a granny a couple blocks away, it definitely has been okay.

I really don’t like her…

Today we did our leadership show! That was good times! Really fun! We had some really funny skits and it marked the comeback of the hockey song! Oh yes, the beloved hockey song. So it was really fun. I’m not really a great addition to mainstage though. I never really fit in the crowd, and I always seem to ask myself, “Why Am I Hear?” I don’t really know, but the afternoon was fun, and we’ll be doing it again tomorrow. As for me now, I’m going to my granny’s for dinner, and then drama practice, so hopefully, I won’t see my step mom barely at all! Excellent!

Home is where the heart is? Yeah right… maybe when my Step mom isn’t home…