// "Do you listen to Radiohead?"

I realized, I can't keep living my life the way I do. If I'm gonna live it for God, there's things I gotta change. I mean, these aren't serious things. They're just subtle little things like... Like crushes. I know I'm a bit old to be using that word in any context, but even dating in general. I can't just date whoever I want. He's gotta be Christian and he's gotta fit what God's planned for me. I won't know who he is and even if I do meet him, I won't know that it's him. But even so, I can't really like just anyone, which is kind of sad in a way but hopeful as well. Make sense?

I was on the bus today and the bus went through Kerrisdale and I passed a coffee shop where this guy I used to date works now. I don't really talk to him at all anymore, just the occational "hello" when we run into each other at shows. But it made me miss him. Not just him in particular, but it made me miss all the possibilities that never happened.

I don't really know where I'm going with this, so I'll just leave it at that.