// Top Five Things On My Mind

1. School. I am incredibly behind in math, as I have 4 tests left, and I have lost all enthusiasm to work hard. I know I must work hard, but I'd rather go play NHL 2004. Priorities? I don't know, I have no priorities. I'm also not doing extremly well in one of the important classes... and I am a little worried about that.

2. May. I have officially decided that I will take the month of May off so that I can do something, but I don't know what. I would LOVE to travel a bit, and I'm still looking into it, but I don't know where to start. I am extremly stoked for Historymaker as my video will premiere at one of the sessions, and I may have to go up early to Historymaker, which would make it even more exciting! However I'm not sure if I'll be able to find a job immidiatly, and where I would work if not for the railway at the time.

3. A Job. I am not very enthusiastic about the entire railroad scene anymore, as you may have been able to tell with the school post, and I am not looking forward to starting a career with the railway. I am excited to work with the railway, but not if I'm going to be working in the pooring rain at 3am. I don't even know where I am going to work, but I would love to work on Vancouver Island right now, but that possibility is not for sure.

4. Home, Moving Out. Sometimes it drives me crazy. With everybody moving in at once, it has finally drivin' me insane, and it is very rare for me to have the house to myself anymore. Fred sometimes makes me incredibly angry with his crazy anti-american views and his bizare ethics. My dad makes me feel guilty (not on purpose) because he keeps giving me money! He also makes me do chores at the worst time possible! At least the food is good! If I were to move out when I get a job on the railway, I would not know how to cook, and meals would be crappy! So that kind of worries me. On the other hand, I could have free rent at home, and put up with madness for a couple more years.

5. Future. Not knowing what my future looks like scares me, and excites me at the same time! I know I wanted to go to Summit, and I keep that in my mind, and I will at least do the Omega Course, I have promised Jesus, and myself that. I really want to further my knowledge with Motion Graphics and Video Editing and go deeper in that technology, and use those skills to create some wicked awesome video's for whoever, myself, Christ, whatever it may be. I hope to only stay in the Railroad Industry for five years at the most. I'll have been able to save a large amount of money for whatever school I chose to go to, and hopefully things will turn out well. I really really hope to grow deeper with Christ, deeper then ever before, and stop some of the things that hinder me from growing deeper with him. I am afraid that maybe these plans might not turn out the way I planned! I'm not sure what exactly will happen. That's why I can at least grow deeper with Christ, and the fear may not bug me anymore.