// "You have been hit." "AARRRRRGAAAH!!"

Besides home, Youth is probably the one place where I know I can be myself and be safe and comfortable and all these wonderful things. Because I trust the people there. Of course, there was that stint at the end of summer when Youth wasn't very fun to go to, but that's another story altogether. But anyway, tonight's event was actually a bit disappointing. I'm not saying it was all bad, it just... wasn't what I had hoped it would be. The Ladner group came in and I talked to the normal ones, which was like, maybe four people in total. The rest of the time was a lot of waiting around and it was just way too crowded. Way. And by the time we finished at Planet Lazer and got back to the church, it was 11:15 PM, which is much too late to head out to McDonald's again. I know this sounds weird, but I was looking forward to it. No, not the greasy burgers and over-salted fries, but McDonald's is where all the inside jokes get started. It's almost always a guaranteed good time at McDonald's where everyone grabs some grub and has a laugh. Oh well. I had myself too psyched up for tonight's Youth event, I think.

I'm leading worship on Sunday and I'm so scared. I've never been a singer (not in public, anyway) and so I'm worried I'll wreck the songs or something. Or I'm scared that I'll mess up at some completely peaceful point and make things all awkward. Or if I lead the bad into a wall. Ouch. But I'm trying to prepare myself for it. I don't know how, but I will.

It's quite late. And there's a lot of stuff I must get done tomorrow. ARG! I need to make a list. 'Till then.