// Counting The Ways To Where You Are

I'm fifteen for a moment
cought in between ten and twenty
and I'm just dreaming
counting the ways to where you are...

...when you've only got a hundred years to live...

It was the last contata tonight and I again have that overflow of happieness effect. For some reason I want to just give Dominique, Jasmine, Stephanie, and Lalaine praise for the work they have done, even though my role was much more bigger.

I wanted to hug everyone and hold them in my arms. Not in like a boyfriend, girlfriend way, but in a way where we could all just soak in each others love.

I wanted to tell Dominique how beautiful she looked, how beautiful Lalaine looked, how beautiful Stephanie look, how beautiful Jasmine looked. Again, not in like a boyfriend, girlfriend way, but in a way to just let them now how much I really love them; how important and special they are to me. I really do have beautiful friends.

Marion said I was a total flirt! I laughed so hard cause in a way it's true, but then again, I look at them like sisters... and could I even see myself going out with one of them? To be more then 'just friends'? No, I couldn't, they will always be my friends.

I wanted to do something for Norman, the guy is having such a trial with life. Yet I wanted to freeze that moment at Dairy Queen with Dyllan and him.

I must say that I love all of you guys... with all my heart. From Steph to Dyllan, and Jasmine, and Nick, and Dominique, and Norman, and...

you get the point.

You are all very special people to me...

never forget that...


...When you've only got a hundred years to live...