// Where are you now?

Life has a habit of getting weird like that. Matt, I don't blame you one bit for wanting to throw in the towel. It tends to fray at the edges and leave us grasping for something solid to hold onto but the reality is, nothing in life is solid. Nothing on this piece of space rock we call Earth, anyway.

Each day that we live out is such a passing phase. It makes me wonder when we'll truly settle down and relax. I mean, there can be days, weeks, months, years, even decades and beyond that seem like they are stable and hold strong, but in the long timeline of Heaven and Earth and all around, nothing is really promising too much.

It's a bittersweet time for me. It's time to grow up and realize that some things were not meant to last forever. And however frightening the future may be, I'm still excited to face it. I need to find a way to talk myself into believing that things will get better with time. I keep saying it, but it never sounds real.

Forging forward, I find myself sometimes forgetting to support others who have supported me in the past. If you are one of these people, I sincerely apologize. For your kind efforts, I would like to somehow repay you. Maybe not tomorrow or next week, maybe years from now, but eventually. I would like to return to you all that you have done for me.

For those that I've hurt, I also sincerely apologize. There is nothing in this world that could excuse my behavior, because it says so plainly, "Love thy neighbour." And often times, this hasn't been the case, so now I ask forgiveness from The Big Guy Upstairs and also a pardom from those around me.

In closing, I'm not quite sure what I want you to get from this. I'm not quite sure what I'm getting from this. I just know that life is about to get a lot more interesting in the next little while. With school just around the corner and history repeating itself, I'm gonna have to buckle down and enjoy the ride. Somehow.