// Driftwood V.2
Matt.
Been a while since the last visit...
Driftwood.
Thought you could use a visit!
Matt.
Haha! Thanks?
Driftwood.
No need to thank me, however I'm concerned
Matt.
Yea eh? Well... What you want me to do now?
Driftwood.
You're in complete control
Matt.
How am I in complete control? Do you think I want this?
Driftwood.
It's your call...
Matt.
You know, I was thinking... I once was listening to this speaker and he said you have to be willing to give up your possessions, family, everything just for Jesus.
Driftwood.
...And?
Matt.
Well... Call me selfish, but back then, and now, I just couldn't do it.
Driftwood.
Why is that?
Matt.
Because how can we be so certain that heaven is what it is?! Is it worth giving up my family, my train set, my car, my everything! Is it really worth it?!
Driftwood.
So your doubting Christ?
Matt.
Somewhat... I guess... I mean, they say we lose are body, and its nothing like earth, and there is no sex! Come on! I haven't had it yet, but I know its going to be good!
Driftwood.
So you're scared?
Matt.
Yes! Is that a bad thing?!
Driftwood.
I'm not the right guy to talk about this stuff my friend...
Matt.
I just... I just don't know anymore. I don't know what I'm doing with my life...
Driftwood.
You ever stop to think?
Matt.
I can't... And when I do, I think about other things... For example, $700!
Driftwood.
You can't do anything about that!
Matt.
I know!!! I know!!! And that's the worst part!
Driftwood.
Why does that still bug you?
Matt.
I'm friends again with every single person in that room now and not a single person will fess up to it? Honestly, how do they live with it?! How! And it's like nobody even cared or cares!
Driftwood.
Everybody has their own side...
Matt.
It's just things like that I question... I need closure, I truly do...
Driftwood.
and hows the new life?
Matt.
Oh please! It's no fun! I'm missing out on my favorite weekend for the first time in five years! You think that makes me happy?! I'm always on call, never know when I work, people are sometimes jerks, I just don't like it!
Driftwood.
Then quit.
Matt.
Haha! And do what? I have no money, can't go to school, no support... Nothing!
Driftwood.
So that's it... Keep on going?
Matt.
Life is good right now, and bad... That's why I'm going insane...
Driftwood.
Gained the world but lost your soul?
Matt.
If you find it, let me know...
3 Comments:
wow that was long anyways honestly.. believing in God is being able to live by faith and not by sight. and faith is daring the mind to go beyond what your eyes can see. See the thing about believing in God is that its not always gonna be easy as 1 2 3, but you can do it, and i mean its okay to be scared everyone is scared sometimes but you've been through tougher situations in your life but you have your friends that love you that are always gonna be there to keep you on track. The whole giving up everything to someone that you can't see but you know he's there.. is hard.. i mean i'm not even fully there yet i've given alot to God but not everything its a long and hard process but when it come to the end its totally worth it and life will be much more fulfilling. And the $700 that was so long ago.. you have a job now and get more money than that, it must be hard to forget about it, if that happened to me i would prolly never forget it but just try to just let it go. When AT WORK I bet you make so many people smile/happy at work.. think about that first.. like i bet you made their day. And there will be plenty more cultus lake trips to come. But sicne you're sad about it will write you a journal of everything we do and everything that happened so it'll be like you're practically there. okily dokily!? =D i'll talk to you tomorrow though its late.
ps. sorry its so long, i talk to much i know.
okie, i have no idea wat the $700 thing is, but i can only assume it's bad...and i kno how u feel(nov.2005) im there right at this moment...rheebs, u may think that ur friends r always there for u, but they'r not...they have thier own problems that most of the time ur overlooked...i am a conal, and a sapphire...member of the church for over ten years; three months go by and not a peep from any one tryin to get me to go back...it's sad...mind u, i dont really miss it...b/c youth has changed so much...u used to b able to talk to anyone...ya there were "cliques" but u could still mingle with all the diff ppl...now it's like ur an outsider wen u were an original...
One day you're going to take a good hard look at life and realize that nothing can ever be perfect, and you might not be fully satisfied with life a hundred percent of the time, but you'll come to accept it. Realize that things happen, sometimes good, sometimes bad, but it all depends on how you percieve it. Think about the good things in your life, think about what they mean to you. Now don't let the bad things bring all that down! And when you see that, you're gonna be like "Life, take me on!" As for your relationship with God, maybe you have to sit and think what you want in you're life, what has God done for you, and if what you want is worth disregarding what God wants for you. I know it sounds the same as everything you've already heard.. but if you truely think about it, you might realize what everyone is trying to tell you! I only want you to be happy. *Life is what you make it*
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