// Are you the now or never kind?

The last week has been interesting, to say the least. I've gone through a zillion emotions and happenings, I'm not even quite sure what to think anymore. I was upset at various points, and then I felt like royalty at others. But really, I just want to be normal again. I want to be able to talk and chill with friends like I used, without having to feel weird or awkward. But I'm starting to think maybe change isn't such a bad thing.

I was at UBC the other day and a professor spoke about relationships and exchange and how the relationships you create in the first two weeks of university are the most crucial. So even the people that I call bestfriends now, even if they aren't in a year (or even less), it'll be okay because university gives me a chance to recreate and rebuild everything in my life. Including those relationships. In no way am I saying I'm going to ditch my friends now for university folk. I'm just saying I'm warming up to the idea of change and feeling less scared about it. You guys. And the kids at RPC. I will NEVER leave you guys behind anywhere. I'll come back and harass you all even if I gotta drive in from another province. HAHA!

And those of you who mean the most to me? You know who you are. Maybe you'll read this, maybe you won't. But I love you two dearly. I thank you for the times we've had and the times yet to come. Cheesy, I know. Thanks for looking after me and for ignoring me when I needed it. I know I've put an insane amount of stress on both your lives and I apologize for that. Just know that whatever you dream of, wherever you go, I'm not that far off. A phone call, a bus ride. I pray every night for your well-being and happiness. I thank God he's placed such wonderful people in my life. I really could not ask for anything more.

Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well...
Here's to the night we felt alive,
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry,
Here's to good bye, tomorrow's going to come to soon.
Eve6 - Here's To The Night