// Merry Canada Day To All

Well all, it is almost Canada day, and I hope you enjoy it! My Canada Day will be exciting as I will be on my way to Kamloops to relive Historymaker! I'm looking forward to seeing some old sights... but it sure will be weird being in the city that i've only known as a crazy city full of christians! It will be crazy! I'll post pictures when i'm back! Have fun you all!

// I Wish

What member of U2 are you?It also said I'm saving the world one day at a time!

// Resignation

Thats right I'm still alive. However, my lack of internet access has kinda killed my ability to post. And the lack of internet access is still there. So I must resign my position at whatever. *Grabs tissue*
Thanks people for reading, and allowing me to be apart of this site. I also have no time to blog as I have left school. Some people refer to it as dropping out, I like to think of it as a postponement of my education. Ummm im gana do a certificate and personal training and some business qualifications. So im in that workforce, so i don't need to get a student loan aye. Aight I shall leave now. maybe i should go to vancouver next year and give a visit, but if i dont see ya, good afternoon, good evening, and good night.

// The radio sings our song.

If Matt gets the award for "First/Best Sun Burn of the Summer", then I get the award for "Most Mismatched With My Grad Dress Sun Tan". Yikes. I went swimming today and it felt good to do some real swimming, like actually doing laps. Instead of just chicken fighting. Although those were good times! I think I'm gonna try and go swimming every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday morning before work this summer.

Watched Paycheque today. The one with Ben Affleck and Uma Thurman. Acting was horrendous. Storyline was all right. Made me cry because I lost two hours of my life. And still, I kept watching even though it was a lame movie. And proof about how lame it was? It made my brother and I get into an argument about whether the movie was good or not. He liked it, I didn't, and if the movie caused two loving siblings to fight, then it's obviously bad!

// Quest for The Best Heads Into The Finals!

Well ladies and gentleman, we have officially finished the final round of Quest for the Best, and now we head into the finals! Here's the low down on the last round.

Group A
"Inside Outside" by Delirious, 8 Votes
"Thanks That Was Fun" by The Barenaked Ladies

Group A was semi close, but Delirious ultimately was the fan favorite. They were ahead the entire time and stayed their. Surprisingly, the Barenaked Ladies had a small comeback taking second place. Here Is Gone by Goo Goo Dolls was the only other song to keep up with 3 votes and the others faded away as people just didn't care.

Group B
"Vertigo" by U2, 10 Votes
"Deeper" by Delirious, 3 Votes

Group B saw heavily favored Vertigo shoot up like a rocket and never stop, and since all the focus was on Vertigo, anyone could take second place. That anyone was again, Delirious with Deeper, as Delirious takes two songs into the finals in one round. Impressive. Others that almost made it included Jammin by Bob Marley and Twenty Four by Switchfoot.

Here are your final songs that will fight for top spot. Congratulations to "Vindicated" by Dashboard Confessional for getting 15 votes and being the top song! Will it survive though?...

1st Place: 15 Votes
"Vindicated" by Dashboard Confessional

2nd Place: 13 Votes
"Superman" by Five for Fighting

3rd Place: 10 Votes
"Vertigo" by U2

4th Place: 9 Votes
"Beautiful Day" by U2
"With or Without You" by U2

5th Place: 8 Votes
"Can You Feel The Love Tonight?" by Elton John
"Time of Your Life" by Green Day
"Dare You To Move" by Switchfoot
"Rain Down" by Delirious?
"Inside Outside" by delirious

6th Place: 7 Votes
"Stairway to Heaven" by Led Zeppelin
"Celebrity" by The Barenaked Ladies
"100 Years" by Five For Fighting
"Last Train Home" by the Lost Prophets
"Where The Streets Have No Name" by U2
"Wonderboy" by Tenacious D
"Times Like These" (Acoustic Version) by The Foo Fighters

7th Place: 6 Votes
"Keep Fishing" by Weezer
"Gone" by Switchfoot
"She Will Be Loved" by Maroon
"Otherside" by the Red Hot Chili Peppers

8th Place: 5 Votes
"El Scorcho" by Weezer
"Pride (In The Name of Love)" by U2
"War on Drugs" by the Barenaked Ladies
"On Fire" by Swtchfoot
"Thanks That Was Fun" by the Barenaked Ladies

9th Place: 4 Votes
"History Maker" by Delirious
"Miracle Drug" by U2
"Boulevard of Broken Dreams" by Green Day
"Again I Go Unnoticed" by Dashboard Confessional
"Roxanne" by the Police

10th Place: 3 Votes
"My Glorious" by Delirious
"Innocent" by Our Lady Peace
"Here Without You" by 3 Doors Down
"Testing 1,2,3..." by The Barenaked Ladies
"Times Like These" by the Foo Fighters
"Hands Down" by Dashboard Confessional
"Mr. Brightside" by The Killers
"Deeper" by Delirious

// "Game or not game?"

The other day, I was having lunch and we were talking about what would happen after death. So I said, "Sweet! I can't wait to party with God." Everyone laughed with me 'cept for Steve who just stared at me. He was like, "Dude, are you serious?" And c'mon, you guys. Courtnay smacks Steve in the arm and says, "Duh. She's Christian. She's totally serious." Steve was like, "What the heck are you going to do in Heaven?" And I thought about it for awhile. Then I said, "Probably gonna rock out and jam." Then Chad said, "So if God is a rock star, then what's Satan?" I thought again.

"50 Cent."

But in all seriousness, dude. I can't wait 'till I get to meet God.

// An Average Day When...

Hi welcome to triple O's, how can I help you
I'll get a number one combo
With cheese?
No thank you
Coke to drink?
Yes please
That's everything?
That's it
Allright your total comes to $5.27 you can drive through to the next window
Thank you

// that feeling..

i hate the feeling when everything is going right and then... something just has to happen.. i hate alot of things right now. i dont even know why i'm being so negative, its not even a big deal. i hate finding out things last. you know when someone is ur friend and they know u're upset/something's on ur mind, but they dont know how u feel and they say stupid things.. thats kinda whats happening.. why cant she just ask me how i feel.. whats bothering me. i dont think any of u understand how i feel right now.. because u dont know what going on. and i am not in a sharing mood. I just need to vent. i hate it when u're close with someone and then all of sudden they find someone "better" or other people and forget about you. yeah people change i understand that but what have i done to deserve this nothing. i hate it when i have to ALWAYS be the one to call people to hang out or like when people say oh we never hang out.. if we never hang out and u want to hang out with me call me .. i would call u too if i had the time. like the name of the blog says WHATEVER.
provincial tomorrow, gotta study.

// Complimentary base pairing is cool.

And we're driving just as fast as we can,
And we're racing to outrun the wind.
It's just me and you and you and me,
So wild and so young, bright-eyed and free.
Anberlin - Driving

I was driving home from school today (Biology review session) and this song was playing. I had the windows down and the sky was bright and everything was so perfect. It felt like summer. I honestly felt free. It was great. Summer is almost here.

Anyway, crazy part of my day? My old bestfriend from Edmonton (Sherwood Park to be exact) messaged. She'd found me randomly on Nexo, and I was shocked. Nicole was my bestfriend in Grades 1 through 4. And even though we haven't seen or talked to each other in ages, it was weird because I found that we didn't grow up that differently. It's crazy how life works out.

Those of you who are still working your way through exams, I wish you well. That's where I am right now, so let's kick this thing.

// What U2 Album Title Is A Subtle Reference To The Cross of Christ?

"The Joshua Tree" (1987). Joshua is an anglicanization of the Hebrew name for Jesus ["Yeshue"] and for centuries the word "tree" has been a term used to describe the wooden cross on which Christ was crucified. Some pretty intense stuff I'm learning about U2 but I still don't know if their christian or not. The band members drink, smoke and swear — yet a radical biblical agenda and faith fuel their life and work. A book I want is called "Walk On: The Spiritual Journey of U2." (Birthday is in a couple months, right that down!) It looks like a very interesting book and I love learning about these guys because there so confusing! You drink, but your a christian? Somethings up, I want to know more.

// BURN!

Well Ladies and Gentleman, I think I win the award for not only the first sun burn of the year, but the best! Taking after my sun burn role model Dave, I tried to go for the racing strip look, but I just have a nice white patch on my foor head. Unlike many past sun burns, this one hurts, my ears burn!

// Some More Questing for The Besting

Well its time again for another update on "Quest for the Best" as we finish yet another round. Here's what were looking at...

Group A:
"Beautiful Day" by U2, 9 Votes
"Dare You to Move" by Switchfoot, 8 votes

Group B:
"Rain Down" by Delirious?, 8 votes
"Stairway to Heaven" by Led Zeppelin, 7 votes

Group A was a dog fight I tell you! From the very beginning U2 and Switchfoot duked it out the entire round, until finally Switchfoot fell short to beautiful day (Even though I’m a U2 fan I had nothing to do with their win!). Nevertheless, the two songs move on to the finals. I admit I tried very hard to try and get some more U2 votes only to inspire then to vote for Jimi Hendrix. Nevertheless, they never took off as U2 and Switchfoot dominated the entire time.

Group B saw Delirious take a huge early lead, and keep it the entire time. However, Stairway to Heaven made a late comeback, passing by Baba O’Riley and leaving them in the dust. California and The Wanderer tried, but never made it past 2 votes.

And so there we have are up-to-date stats. I have put up another round, and this is the last round I am doing!! ATTENTION! IF YOU HAVE AN SONGS YOU WANT IN QUEST FOR THE BEST THAT HAVE NOT BEEN PUT IN, LET ME KNOW!!! I WILL PUT THEM IN A FINAL ROUND!

That is all… rock on

// Bling Bling

I am worth $1,247,000 on HumanForSale.com

apparently this is how much I am worth. Yes, it is funny, and I enjoy the little website game thing, however, I don't feel very expensive. In fact, I have lost all value.

I am frustrated. Graduation is awesome, don't get me wrong there. It's everything else. For all those concerned, it looks as if Revelstoke will not be the future home of Matthew. After applying for 3 other jobs, one has called back to say you can't work unless you have your class 5 drivers license, so come apply when you get it. I'd love too, except that won't be until January of 2006. The fun of White Spot has quickly worn off, and now I get my another sense of frustration. They have recently put me in the kitchen which is just no fun whatsoever. I want out. I want a job where I can get some good money working full time. This doesn't seem to be working out for me. I think I've already forgotten how hard it is to get a job.

I am in high debt, with myself, and with my father. I had a fair amount of money in one of my accounts, the account that was to be money for a future computer, but now I have slowly been taking money out. Money for gas, for food, for presents. I have actually started to cook my own meals! Yes, you know I'm desperate when I start to cook. I officially owe my dad $130 after insurance difficulties so that will take up my entire pay cheque.

My future. Yes another nagging problem that comes to the plate. The fact that I see my future in Summit is not working for me. I am convinced that my dad will not pay for the first year, so I need to get this money by myself. This is a huge obstacle to overcome, as well as my dad throwing other careers at me, which don't seem to intrigue me.

Girl problems. I don't think nobody knows what I'm going through in this case so lets just not give out too many details, cut to the chase and say their are problems. Whose fault is that? Well, mine, but can you blame me? Lets not go there...

Worst thing possible is that my relationship with God sucks. Whose fault is that? Obviously mine! Here's the thing, a friend once told me that maybe your relationship sucks because of your attitude towards youth group. That was true, but since then I'd like to think I've changed my attitude. Somehow I just don't seem to get into his word, into worship, into anything. I seem completely immune to Jesus. Have I given up all hope? No, I pray every night. Here's the worst part of it all. It's all my fault, yet I don't want to do anything about it. At Historymaker he said on the first night you have to change. Since then I haven't done one thing different. Historymaker was a huge disappointment as well this year, maybe because of my attitude. I don't really know! I have so much stuff going on at this very present moment that I shove Jesus out of the picture! I don't mean to do this!!! Argh! I suck. So those who say "you have to get into the word" and "you have to take this more seriously" and so on and so on, I have been telling myself the same thing. I swear, I have a split personality or something.

I really would love to go to Revelstoke now. I just need to change some things in my life, and maybe leaving everything I love would be a reality check, and finally I would realize how much of a friend Jesus Christ really is.

"How can I say that I love you when everyday I deny you?" - Surreal

// May I Have Your Attention!

I have finally put up another round of Quest for The Best! Go Vote! NOW! This is very controversial if I do say so. I have put in the so called best song in the world. So lets see how the best song in the world is dealt with in Quest for the Best! (I know I won't be voting for it!)

// I Present To You a Map...

This map has a red box around a city called Revelstoke. As you can tell, it's far away from Vancouver. Far away! Why is there a red box around Revelstoke? Well folks this is my potential new city I will be living in! I don’t think I will be, but you never know! But if I am moving there I’ll be gone fairly soon. So whoa! Is this crazy or what?

My reasons for moving: I have applied to work on the railway, and its $90 a day. That’s good money. I want the chance to actually live by myself independently and this would be a great opportunity. I want the chance to start life over again because right now things aren’t as smooth as they could possibly be, and I see no end in sight. Run away from your problems you say? Sure, might as well. And when I do come back, all my problems will have died.

Reasons for not moving: I love everyone around me and that'll be hard to leave

Well, let's see what happens…

// I'll see you there.

These are the things we go through,
Let's take control and be ourselves.
Let's not waste time wondering about
How we're gonna make it out.
Wake up everyone around you!
Let's rock until the clock strikes two!
Stand up for what you believe and shout to!
Here's another song from the youth that surround you.
Hawk Nelson - Things We Go Through

Okay, so. Most people know that I was sick beyond belief on Thursday and that I'd stayed home to recover. And then last night, I was drinking a smoothie (I know, I abuse my throat again the SECOND it feels slightly bettter) and Shane and Lalaine took sips even though I warned them I was still getting over sickness. Sometimes, our youth group is just too close for our own good. Ah ha.

Steph's strange discovery of the week? I was sitting next to someone couple days ago and suddenly, I was like, "Hey. I guess it wouldn't be so weird if I liked him." It was strange because I'd never look at him in that way before. I mean, it had crossed my mind, but I'd always been slightly weirded out by it. It was the first time where I had thought about it and GROSS wasn't the first word that came to mind. It feels strange when you view people in a different light. Sometimes refreshing, but othertimes (like this), it could amount to only trouble. So of course, I'm not going to pursue it, but it was an interesting thought.

I don't get what it is with old movies and their misleading, but happy endings and morals. Like, what's up with that?! She changes herself completely, gets the guy and things work out? SO I'M SUPPOSED TO CHANGED MYSELF FOR LOVE?! I don't think so. But hey, the 80's were an interesting decade.

I have nine full days of high school left in my entire career. Wow. It's really going to end. And if high school was such a fun ride, then I wonder what else God's got in store for me. Sweet.

// You Know What's Awesome?!?!

This is my last full day of class on a Friday in my high school career! And i'm out at 11am! How sweet is that?!?! I love it!

// One Thing I Hate

You know what I hate? When something happens to you which you wish you could have changed or an event happens and you wish that you had just done this one thing different. For example, when the Canucks lost in the playoffs and I couldn't believe they were out, and I said if only they did this they might still be here or if only they had scored here it might have been different. The truth is, we will never know that if they did this or did that things would have been different. That's what I hate. When you see all your work, or someone elses work, go down the drain and you can't do a thing about it. Can anyone guess what happened to me?
No cheating!

Guess what happened!


Guess yet?


Done?


Okay, for all you who have no clue, I was shot in spy vs spy last night, and it hurt! I had been loving the game, and my hiding technique were working out so very well. In the end, i was cought while i was distracted and tired. After coming home from work the killer came unsaspectitly from behind, and shot me on my very own door step. I was so sad... and mad as well... the entire night I thought "If only i had come in the back door, she wouldn't have cought me!" or "If only I was 10 minutes late she wouldn't have been there." However I will never know how much i could have done because that is it for me. I'm out. Done like dinner. That's what I hate. Knowing that if you did one thing differently it could have meant all the difference.

This one hurts...

// The Politics of Hillsong's Concert

Yesterday night there were three different groups of people. There were the happy, the disappointed, and the frustrated. I was part of that disappointed group since I waited two hours in line to sit in a gym, behind the stage where you could pretty much see the drummer and the heads of the singers of Hillsong... And a lot of people up in the balcony enjoying themselves. What I did not understand was this; we had group of 20 something people and 15 of them were in the gym, without any leader. Don't get me wrong here, but if most of your group is sitting down in the gym, shouldn't the leaders give up their seats to come sit with their group? I mean, I would think it would make since. Nevertheless, Shaun and Chantelle came so I knew if God was going to do crazy things we would have a couple more leaders to pray for our kids, instead of just... me.

Phill Dooley was awesome, as usual. The night was aimed more at non believers and to let them know that God is BIG and he loves us! Phill Dooley is really my favorite speaker. He seems to always put humor in such a serious message and it always leaves a big impact on you. We only got to see the back of Phill's head, but we did have to big screens. It was like watching TV, and as I said to Dyllan "we should have well just stayed at the church and put the hillsong DVD on the big screen."Nevertheless, hillsong live is better then a DVD, even if there back is to you. They always get you jumping!

The frustrated included the thousands of people waiting outside to get into the second session. The happy is... can anyone take a guess?

Yes! The ones who got seats in the front! So altogether in our group we had 15 disappointed, 0 frustrated, and 5 happy. How did the 5 others get to be happy when they waited the same time as us? Whatever, we enjoyed ourselves, for the most part, we really did.