// I Really Don't Know
I watched the OC today again! Oh man, I'm on fire with the OC lately! I really hate watching the new ones because I have no clue whats going on (where did Jimmy Cooper go?!?!) but Merrisa's sister is pretty hot! Moving on!
apparently my Aunt is mad at me for not doing anything for my Grandma's service on Saturday, which really does sit well with me. First of all, I tried making a movie for my Grandma, but one of the old videos wasn't working. Secondly, they don't have a projector. Third thing, why didn't she ask me to do something? I mean honestly, what AM I supposed to do? I have the feeling that a lot of people are mad/annoyed/not pleased with me lately which again, isn't sitting well. It's not like I purposely wake up in the morning and think to myself "I wonder who I should piss off today? I wonder how I should piss them off?"
On top of that, my life is a complete mess, literally. I haven't cleaned my bedroom for weeks, nor put my laundry away. My notes and modules from school are scattered every where and I am the most disorganized person you might ever meet. Why don't I clean it you say? I honestly have no motivation or enthusiasm or purpose to clean it, which is at this moment how I presently feel about my life. I am enjoying my time at BCIT, I really am, but somehow after October life just deteriorated and I really haven't recovered or anything. I once was lost, but then I was found, but now I'm lost again.
I don't know what the problem is, but there is definitely a problem, and I blah blah blah. It really doesn't help with people being mad at me as well. I really feel like I have nobody, yet I have lots of people there for me and there always saying "I'm here for you" but that just doesn't seem to help.
Anywho, that's just me ranting on about life...It's waiting for you, it's all messed up but we'll survive. I still haven't found what I'm looking for.
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Jimmy, Marissa's dad, owed some big wigs a lot of money who sent their men after him. So he decided he was going to try and marry Julie again because he thought she was left a big inheritance from Cal. Well Cal left her nothing at all and the business was pretty much bankrupt. So then he didnt have the money for the men. They beat the crap out of him. Then he left on his boat. No one knows what happened to him now. He is just gone.
As for everyone being mad at you, everyone is dealing with grief differently. They are going to react differently to different situations. Just as you are probably dealing with it differently than a lot of the family. I am sorry for what you are going through right now. Keep your chin up.... brighter skies are ahead.
Anyways, my friend.... you should find motivation to clean your room some time. You dont want silverfish!
Really? Jimmy just has disapeared!?! Oh man! He was my favorite character! Thank you for that very informative information! I should probably buy Season 2 (with what money?) Hey! There's a chance he'll come back! Right...? RIGHT?!!?
Thanks for the words of wisdom...and whats silverfish?
Silverfish are these weird little silverfish who will hop all over your carpet. I am not sure how they get there or why but all i know is its from dirtiness. Good luck!
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