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Well, well, well... I think I shall post right as we speak!
Life has been incredibly busy and really I haven't had that much time to post. Well technically I have but I just haven't been motivated to post!
Work has been... well it has been work. I live a very interesting life style this week which has been alright, but I'm not really used to it. Basically I wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep, wake up, go to work... You see, I have afternoon shifts this week, so that lets me sleep in! Yay! Because I sleep in though, takes up most of my day. You know what sucks about today? Yesterday I worked one of my biggest shifts, and I got home about 11:30. My feet were incredibly soar... And as we speak, they are still in pain! I got another who knows how long of a shift ahead of me today!
It sounds like I'm complaining a lot, and maybe I am, but I realized I was taking this kind of lifestyle way before I got this job. It's just a little annoying, you know? Other than that, training has been ridiculously hard and I am incredibly frustrated about that. I still have no clue what I'm doing and no clue what I will be doing and it just seems very confusing still, and I'm just waiting for the day that it all starts to make since. I think the few positives I can take from work are the satisfaction of completing a shift, and the money! When I finish a shift, I know I screwed up all day, but still, I feel somewhat proud, and somewhat frustrated as well. So far I've worked with a bunch of awesome guys, and they even know I'm a Christian! They have nic named me 'Thumper" as in bible thumper. It's alright, I'll go with that.
Matt Moore is on his way to Quebec this Saturday and I am truly saddened. I love Matt, he's such an awesome guy so I told him we would all go out for lunch Friday. So far my organizing of lunch hasn't gone all that well, but hopefully there will be people there!
Canada Day! I completely forgot about Canada Day! I'm hoping for a nice quiet Canada Day, last years Canada Day was way to eventful, if you know what I mean... No? Okay lets keep it that way. I think I'm going to the parade in Stevetson (all who want to come are invited, and what time is it at?) and then after that just run around with my Canada cape! I might go to the fireworks at the Nat Saturday but I'll have to see...
Couple minor points is that I'm posting on my old computer! Shaun has mine in for repairs and it should be done soon, I just haven't had the time to pick it up. It's been interesting use my old computer, since it is sooooooooo freakin slow! My desktop pic is of Cultus Lake 05...hehehe, shows I don't use it much eh? BNSF emailed me back saying they didn't want to hire me... Screw you guys! I got a job already!
Other then that, I just keep truckin' on.
Out of all the really great things that are going on in my life right now, it feels like "whats the point?" I don't think I've truly found what I'm looking for...
2 Comments:
i hate having those moments where u think u kno where u wanna go, but then something pops up and u think y the hell did i ever think that?...i have had soooooooooooooo many of those recently, it's gotten to the point where i don't really kno which way is up in my life...i think alot of it comes from the fact that ive never really thought of my future, and it's now here, and im scared b/c i don't have the "safety net" of high school...HIGH SCHOOLERS HAVE IT MADE! no joke...im still not 100% sure on wat i wanna take come september, but i kno if i dont go back by then, i may never go back, which is freaky...growing up sucks...and matty, i say dont sleep in, get up and do something...or u'll just end up sleeping ur life away...which is wat i do...so don't do wat i do...do wat i say...haha...u dont have to, but seriously...i am disgusted with myself in how i approach life...i wanna change that...and i will...u kno ive actually been avoiding coming online b/c i dont wanna "bump" into a "certain someone?"...it's stupid...i wanna stop doing that too...I NEED MOTIVATION, HOLY SNAP!...u kno, wen i first started at zellers, i'd always feel like i had butterflies in my tummy...but it goes away...just keep doing the right things at work, and then it becomes routine, and u dont mess up as much...i still make mistakes and ive been there for a year...so no worries...wow, long comment here...well...hope there was somethin in there to inspire u, if not, too bad.... :p
english bay sucks! its all about galiano!
and you should come online so i can talk to you more! thanks anne!
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