// Busy

When life gives you lemons, clone them and make super lemons! Folks, it takes time and effort to make super lemons. This is my reason for not posting anymore... I have been incredibly busy, and to be honest, my busy life isn't slowing down.

My biggest disapointment is that when I stopped posting the blog just dies? Where are the other 5 members who post? I mean if we each posted once a week this would be a rockin' good blog!!!! I admit that even I haven't posted once a week, but as I've said it's been busy... I do think it's time for new members though. Kassi has posted a grand total of once and I think Ben has completly forgoten about us. Oh yeah! What ever happened to Brendon? Life has been so weird lately... Anywho If you want to join the blog and beleive you'll make a positive contribution to the team (how cheesy is this?) let me know!

As for me... what's been happening? Let me see...
-making breakaway video
-made rpc's hm promo
-school is picking up
-Galiano trip to organize
-started work on train set again
-discovery days
-42nd Street

I'm tired so I must be going...

// List of things to kill... er, destroy. I mean, hug?

Nick found out yesterday that I was accepted to SFU, but that I still hadn't decided where I was going, so he kept repeating, "But you're going to SFU. Right? RIGHT?" Even though I clearly told him, "I don't know! I haven't decided! There's still UofA!" But it was funny and it felt nice to know that there are people who will miss me if I have to go. Especially since it was Nick. He NEVER shows any sort of affection for ANYONE! Not even Dom! ...did I say that out loud? My bad. hehe.

I've decided that I don't like people who try to do my job. Case in point: I'm the stage manager for the spring production at my school and we are currently in the middle of our ten show run. Tonight, I had the make-up artist coming up to me trying to tell me how to do my job.
1. Not to be degrading, but you're the make-up artist. Stick to that.
2. You think I don't know how to do my job? I've been slaving day in and day out for this production since NOVEMBER. You've been here since mid February.
3. I know age is nothing but a number, but you're in the 9th grade. I'm in the 12th. I'm pretty sure I've got a couple years experience on you when it comes to jobs like this.
It frustrates me when people try to go above and beyond and just end up being really annoying. I can appreciate when people help point out my mistakes, but you're not being helpful when you flutter around here and there, pretending like you're important and trying to do MY job, when really, you're just making things way too confusing and taking up too much space. Go awaaay. I hope no one here reads this and then feels bad because this is just my rant for the day. I needed to get rid of stress somehow. Oi.

Also, I have now added repetitive questions and 1000 word essays to my list of things to kill. I'm sorry I'm so bitter today. I'm trying really hard not to be!

// A random poem

How Did You Die

Did you tackle that trouble that came your way
With a resolute heart and cheerful?
Or hide your face from the light of day
With a craven soul and fearful?
Oh, a trouble’s a ton, or a trouble’s an ounce,
Or a trouble is what you make it.
And it isn’t the fact that you’re hurt that counts,
But only how did you take it?

You are beaten to earth? Well, well, what’s that?
Come up with a smiling face.
It’s nothing against you to fall down flat,
But to lie there -- that’s disgrace.
The harder you’re thrown, why the higher you bounce;
Be proud of your blackened eye!
It isn’t the fact that you’re licked that counts;
It’s how did you fight and why?

And though you be done to death, what then?
If you battled the best you could;
If you played your part in the world of men,
Why, the Critic will call it good.
Death comes with a crawl, or comes with a pounce,
And whether he’s slow or spry,
It isn’t the fact that you’re dead that counts,
But only, how did you die?

-Edmund Vance Cooke

// Warm Up

The bad boy broke the big blue bed of the bride. The black
cycle of the scary ghost rolled through the big school. They
crashed their bodies together. I broke a seashell beside the
seashore. The sea shore is dark blue but is high above the
rocks. She sat above the light red carriage. The carriage
had a gold lock hooked tightly over the foof. Debbie; did
Charles use a fork. He tries to break the little gold lock.
They tried very hard. The gold lock broke. The little bits
cracked. A beautiful baby boy looked at Debbie Hestor. The
baby started to cry so Charles coached soccer. The baby
started to cry so Debbie have her fifty blue roses. Debbie
also dyed the dress blue. The baby rolled out of the
carriage. He drove off over the hill. She drives her car.
Her hairdresser had a black hostel boy horse called
Yoshibovity. Yoshibovty ate lots of fresh fruit for
breakfast. He had grass for dessert. He bravely ate food;
also fluid. He had to offset all the food that he ate so he
booked a basketball feild. He did have a baseball but his
brother took took the the basketball that he recieved as a birthday
gift. Yoshibovty talked to his father; he also talked to his
sister. He sobbed over the soil; he sobbed at school; he
sobbed at the house; he also sobbed at the cradle. The frog
heard his voice. He kissed the floor. The bull had a jacket
but lost it. The bright lights shattered. The chair broke.
The railroad is grey; also dusty. A black truck hit a blue
toy outside the huge red hotel. The grey truck hurt Bobby.
There is a lot of stress at school these days for you Bobby.

// I don't owe you anything.

I am wearing myself sooo thin. I don't think I'm gonna survive in one piece. Maybe two. Or three. Actually, I don't care how many pieces. As long as I'm in bed, sleeping, I'm content in a million pieces.

All quirky-artsy-emotional-junk aside, yes. I am working much too hard. I am starting to feel the effects. I'm staying up much too late, finishing off far too much work. I hung out last night with Dyllan, Choti, Rose, Ivan, (their friend), Matt and Kasi. We went to Wendy's for food after the service and it was good to actually just do nothing for a change. Really. I miss those days. And hopefully with the Oliver run coming up soon, maybe things will settle down again after that.

It is MUCH too cold in this house right now. So ridiculously cold. I took a nap today too. You know you're getting old when...

And what's this? It's Valentine's Day today? What's that? I don't care? Actually, yeah. It's not such a huge deal. I got those Valentine's Day cards that you get in elementary school. Sesame Street. Everyone loved it. I was particularly witty with Sam's card. Oh yes. Anyway, this time last year, I was dating an Australian guy named Ben. As we all know, that obviously didn't work out as I would've hoped, but that's alright. Maybe this time next year, things will be more interesting. I can hope.

Today friends i'll teach you a bit about new zealand culture. Todays lesson is 'making fun of australians" (aka aussies). We tend to make fun of aussies because...well they tend to beat us at nearly every sport. Which really doesnt make too much sense but hey...it's my countries national way.
Examples of ways to make fun of aussies:
What do you call an Aussie with half a brain?
Gifted.

What should you do if an Aussie throws a grenade at you.
Pull the pin and throw it back.

What do you call an Aussie who scores well in an IQ test?
A cheat.

If Santa Claus, a smart Aussie and a dumb blonde were in a room, and you tossed in a hundred dollar note, who would grab it first?
The blonde - the other two don't exist.

No offence to australians, i love you i really do :D
Nah, really they're great people with awesome winning attitudes, and they all have a fun sense of humour.

// The Mind of Matthew has just singed in

The Mind of Matthew says:
Good morning
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Whoa! You're online
The Mind of Matthew says:
Of course fool! You never listen to me!
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Of course I do!
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
All the time!
The Mind of Matthew says:
Lies!
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Shut up!
The Mind of Matthew says:
Hey! Don't make me block you!
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Who cares? I don't want to talk to you anyway!
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Go ahead!
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Block me!
The Mind of Matthew says:
Hmmmm...
The Mind of Matthew says:
I can see this isn't working out to my advantage
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Nope, so BYE!
The Mind of Matthew says:
Okay! I'm sorry!
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
For?
The Mind of Matthew says:
Why are we fighting?
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
I dunno, because we can't fight with Fred anymore?
The Mind of Matthew says:
Or we agree on different things
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
That’s possible too
The Mind of Matthew says:
That’s what it is fool
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
okay okay, so why are you hear?
The Mind of Matthew says:
meh, you looked bored, no one is on messenger at 10:30am
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
True, but that's not the reason is
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
It
The Mind of Matthew says:
Nope
The Mind of Matthew says:
You are starting to feel depressed again aren't you?
The Mind of Matthew says:
I’m not going through another depressing week
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Well its youth I guess
The Mind of Matthew says:
How?
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
What do you mean how?
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Everybody has a friend and they always have someone to hang out with and I'm in Vancouver!
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
No one remembers the Vancouver kid!
The Mind of Matthew says:
Well what made you depressed?
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
I'm not sure, I was just having so much fun with Kassi and Rheba, and then I had to leave and they were still there having fun and I don't want to leave the fun
The Mind of Matthew says:
They have to leave it too
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Not as quickly
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
And everyone makes plans without me; I haven't hung out with friends after school since grade 8
The Mind of Matthew says:
Well you’re in Vancouver! You can't change that
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
I'm a 20 minute drive away from everyone!
The Mind of Matthew says:
It doesn't matter
The Mind of Matthew says:
You have to realize that you can't be apart of everyone’s life everyday
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
So what are you saying?
The Mind of Matthew says:
You can't look for the answers in Richmond
The Mind of Matthew says:
Let me ask you a question...
The Mind of Matthew says:
If you didn't go to youth for two weeks, Wed, Fri, and all Sunday, how many times would you see your friends?
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Well, I would probably see Dyllan, maybe Kassi and Chris, Sam at hockey
The Mind of Matthew says:
What about Steph and Anne and Matt and Nick, or other close friends at youth
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
What so are you trying to say that there bad friends?
The Mind of Matthew says:
Nooo! I'm saying that you don't live in their life
The Mind of Matthew says:
You live in a Vancouver life, and they live in a Richmond life
The Mind of Matthew says:
Face it; you can't count on them all the time
The Mind of Matthew says:
You don't call anyone, and if you try to make plans on Wed or Fri and they are already busy or having something planned
The Mind of Matthew says:
Dyllan is just like you, he has no schedule, so most of the time it's him you hang out with
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
I guess you are right...
The Mind of Matthew says:
Guess? Come on! Who besides Dyllan in the past couple weeks has asked you to come do something?
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Well I can be blamed too
The Mind of Matthew says:
Sure you can
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
When was the last time you organized something?
The Mind of Matthew says:
Hmmm, okay so you’re right, we can be blamed for that
The Mind of Matthew says:
So why don't you invite some people over to the house this weekend? The parents aren't home
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
I could, but everyone will be like "so far away!"
The Mind of Matthew says:
I know! Don't you hate that!?!?!
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
YES! What do you mean so far away?!?!
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Is my trip to Richmond not the same as the trip to Vancouver?
The Mind of Matthew says:
Exactly! It’s not any harder to get to Richmond then it is to get to Vancouver
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
I know!
The Mind of Matthew says:
So how many people from youth have come to visit you in Vancouver, like you do to everyone in Richmond
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
1, it was Nellie
The Mind of Matthew says:
How may times?
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Once
The Mind of Matthew says:
Is that not hard on you?
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Of course it is you moron! Do you not think I’m getting the shorter end of the rope?
The Mind of Matthew says:
Then why don't you tell them?
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
I have! I think...
The Mind of Matthew says:
Back to my point, they live a Richmond life...
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Wow...
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
That is true...
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
But I still love them
The Mind of Matthew says:
Of course! I know! And just because of this conversation nothing is going to change your opinion on them
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
I know
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
So what do you suggest I do?
The Mind of Matthew says:
Well, this is just a suggestion... but... you could stop going to youth for a while and gain stronger friendships with your friends at school
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Stop going to youth? Hmmm, that doesn’t shock me as much as I thought it would
The Mind of Matthew says:
I mean look at it, it would give you better relationship with your friends here, and you wouldn't be so dependent of your friends from Richmond
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
I don't really have a bunch of friends here that I’m close too
The Mind of Matthew says:
The three amigos!
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Oh yeah! Forgot about Jon
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
He’s funny
The Mind of Matthew says:
Yeah, like the time at youth he started the big hockey fight?
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Hahahaha! That was awesome
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Well I dunno
The Mind of Matthew says:
It's just a suggestion, and it would kind of test your friends too
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Do I want to test my friends?
The Mind of Matthew says:
I don’t know, I’m just saying
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Well, it doesn't really help me being brighter and everything, I’m still missing out
The Mind of Matthew says:
I know, and especially when you have been going through such hard times, it's nice to have your friends around
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Yeah, but they have been and haven't... it's kind of nice when Rheba calls now
The Mind of Matthew says:
Well fight through it, and invite people over this weekend anyway
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Thanks me
The Mind of Matthew says:
No problem me
The Mind of Matthew says:
We’ll talk about the other crap going on in your life later... I’m hungry now
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Me too!
The Mind of Matthew says:
Figure out what we're doing Friday!
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Oh yeah, I think I'm going to cancel dodge ball
The Mind of Matthew says:
That might be good idea
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
And party at my house!
The Mind of Matthew says:
Sweet!
The Mind of Matthew says:
If they come
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Yes, if
The Mind of Matthew says:
Okay, I’m out
The Mind of Matthew says:
Cya
~ MåtTÿRôb ~ says:
Peace

// The Barenaked Ladies: Official Band of RPC Youth Cultus Lake Camping Trip

Yes, the five gentlemen you see above have officially been named the band of RPC Youth’s Cultus Lake Camping Trip.

Any objectives? Well I don’t care! Because you can’t change it! Muhahaha!

The reason behind this goes back way back to 2002. Pastor Jade was like “hey, want to come up early to Cultus with me?” So I did, and we had a rockin’ good time! I loved it. The entire way up we listened to The Bareanked Ladies Greatest Hits. Was so awesome! I didn’t even know them too well back then, but I quickly became a fan! We listened to them so much! That was a very fun day; awesome way to kick off my first Cultus Trip. I’ll never forget that day and neither will Pastor Jade. He was telling me that every time he puts that CD on, he thinks of that day.

The Barenaked Ladies are more then just five crazy people with wacky but meaningful lyrics; they are memories that I’ll never forget…

// Test Time!

Global Personality Test Results

Stability (56%) moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic. Orderliness (46%) medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun. Extraversion (56%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

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Hmmm, that's pretty accurate I guess...

You've crossed the finish line
won the race but lost your mind
was it worth it afterall?

// Frustrated

Who knows the entire situation of 'Matt wanting to go to Summit but getting no support from dad' thing? Well, it's time to dust it off and start up the frustrating pointless talks he's giving me! Crap...

His friend who is in the police force has been talking to him, or he has been talking to him, whatever, but now my dad is trying to get me to become a cop! I wanted to be a cop for like a week in grade 10! Only because I wanted to shoot things! I told him I didn't want to call him, and all last night he seemed very disappointed. He told me that "I have to take his help" but I don't have to, and I know he's trying to help me, but he isn't.

On the way to school this morning he said again I have to take his advice and that if I don't do something for him, he won't do something for me, like let me borrow the car.

Bah, I hate life at these times. Why do I have to put up with this crap... so now I’m into hot water again and I really don't think I can handle it this time. Last time it was so bad that I almost went crazy... and I can't take another one of these situations. Now I have to call someone too? Not going to survive this week.

HM Tour! Sweet! Crap my dad is against my future! Getting harder to get stoked! I NEED A JOB!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

// Still living in August.

I wait outside your bedroom window,
And I know we're still alive.
And this winter cold it burns me,
Like you have so many times.

And when we fall,
I'll say it on my own.
We fall together,
Just like before.

And this winter night is dying,
Like I am for you.
And we've had our share of first times,
And mistakes we've made a few.
And now we're way far away,
Way far away.

And when we fall,
We'll say it on our own,
We fall together,
Just like before.
And when we fall,
We'll say it on our own,
'Cause we're together,
Unlike before,
I'm falling.
Remember August - "The Mourning After"

It reminds me of that night in August when Matt, Dyllan and I were in sitting in Speedy Reidy, in my parking lot. We had a sleeping bag out because we were cold (sort've) and the music was going and it was so, so awesome.

I miss being warm. I the summer.

// Confused?!

I'm worried about something but I don't know what it is... let me look at this

Failing photo; possibly could be the problem

Doing Hamlet in english; don't understand anything about it

Starting CAPP; just lazy and don't want to do it

Mainstage; The musical is hard core

Hey! They all have something to do with school! That's not good! I haven't had a problem with school all year long! Hmmm, not good.

Getting unstoked?!?!? To tired to think...