// On the side of the highway.

Okay, I've figured out a new design for this layout. But still using this layout. If that made sense? I'm still going to use this banner, but make it fit into a column-like table like our last layout. But not as table-like. If that made sense too?! Anyway, I'm gonna duke it out with Paintshop and then Matt and I will look at graphics and discuss and then we'll bring something back soon, alright? ALRIGHT!

I've been studying for Biology ALL DAY. With y'know, small breaks here and there. Then Chris kicked me off MSN and told me to study more. Dang. :D So I got a cup of water, wrote maybe another paragraph and THEN sat down to watch TV. Man, I watched a lot of TV. A bit TOO much, maybe. First it was Joey, then Will and Grace and then, a full hour of Tru Calling. That's two hours of TV! I haven't watched that much TV in a day since Grade 10 or something! Nonetheless, I had a few good laughs. Those three shows ALMOST made up for the lack of The OC tonight. But y'know how it is.

I have plans to go jogging again on Saturday morning. I'M SO EXCITED. It will be good.

// Pop Quiz

unread novel + pop quiz = 0

See, I'm good with math

// Hated.*

K...Im becoming non self reliant. it seems im making all the wrong choices. People are mad for something i didnt intend to do...i dont see why everything always manages to come back to me...

this is getting retarded.

**chris-yue--

// I'll Be Waiving My Hand Watching You Drown

I never recovered from Sunday night. I don't like the state I'm in but nevertheless, I'm in it.

Thank you for all who have tried to help me and talk and I apologize if I have been a jerk. If I have offended anyone I'm sorry.

Continue on your daily lives without worry, I'm fine.

"You can all sleep sound tonight, I'm not crazy or anything" - Superman

What's wrong? I'm not sure... if I knew I might have been better by now... but honestly I don't know what's wrong. I think I'm mad at people or something and I don't want to see them but I have no choice and I see them and it makes me mad and then I get frustrated and yea...

Is that what it is?

Man, this is weird. I don't know why I'm like this. Dyllan noticed it at the mall so obviously there has been a change in my mood. I've lost enthusiasm for everything and I don't want to do anything.

Props to the people doing the famine this week, I knew I wasn't going to do it anyway. I calculated that I ate about $30 worth of McDonalds while contemplating the idea of the famine so I think once I get paid for work next week I'll give Sam at least $20... I don't want to say $30 because I'm not sure how much I can actually give to him. So Kelsey! If you read this let Sam know I'm donating money to him! Sam is a really cool kid. He is a kid so it's important that I look after him and I always looked up to the big kids when I was in youth. I think doing something like this is a real morale boost for anyone. It's actually kind of funny, I'm not in the mood for doing anything with anybody but Sam called up Monday and asked about hockey and I was up for that. I couldn't do hockey but still, the only person I want to hang out with is little Sammy! Geez... he really has grown on me.

I've kind of isolated myself lately. I kept my phone off all day Monday and I didn't bother to pick up for anyone besides Fred and Sam. Why isolate yourself? I'm not sure, maybe to listen to what I actually am saying? I talk to Fred because he's Fred, and in hockey you sometimes just let loose and tell people what’s up and let go of everything. Sounds weird, but I've had some intense conversations at hockey games.

Did I tell you my step mom wouldn't let me take Speedy Reidy to school? Yea, it was stupid, but I ended up taking him anyway. It's going to be a battle to keep Speedy Reidy that's for sure... oh yeah! I got Speedy Reidy back! Did I not tell anyone!?!?!

Speedy Reidy is BACK!!!!

I work all week and I'm going to find a gym to work out at after work. Apparently there is one near my work, one that Andy and Shaun go to.

I have this feeling, not suicidal or anything, but I wish that I could just start all over again... pick up this life and start a whole new world; a different city, a different atmosphere, different friends, different everything. Summit would be perfect... but I can't go for a while. Funny how at Summit I have an awesome relationship with God and when I come back it sucks again. Maybe I should look at changing churches. I'm going to try and make it for the morning service at PJ's. Maybe I should boycott Richmond... not go to youth for a week, to church, come to hang out, just not go to Richmond. Would anybody care? If they did would they care enough to come hang out here?

Is this what this whole thing is about? Being accepted? Well, it's about being mad at people and being accepted, combined... maybe... whatever. I might try that this week, not hang out in Richmond, and accept for of course working purposes... we'll see. I'm probably so out of it by now I don't even know what I'm saying anymore

"Well it's all right, you can all sleep sound tonight, I'm not crazy or anything" - Superman

// Quest is Back!

I’m sorry! I have not done my job on Quest for The Best! I haven’t taken down round 5 on a month, and I didn’t even post Round 4 results! So here we go, one big catching up post on Quest for the Best…

ROUND 4!

Group A:
“Keep Fishing” by Weezer, 6 votes
“Hands Down” by Dashboard Confessional

We didn’t have many votes in round four, so it was easy for a song to win. Weezer took full advantage of the not-too-many-vote-round and blew everyone away with 6 votes. Dashboard lucked out with 3 votes while “the middle” and "In Love with the Eighties (Pink Tux to the Prom)" had 2 votes. "Overdrive" and "There Is" were the only others who got a vote which was one.

Group B:
"Miracle Drug" by U2, 4 Votes
"Mr. Brightside" by The Killers, 3 Votes

As I said before, there were not many votes, and since I get my brother and me to vote, and some other hardcore U2 fans who I don’t know, it was an easy win for U2’s Miracle Drug. Well no easy since The Killers were right behind them with 3 votes. "Sadie Hawkins Dance", "Soco Amaretto Lime", and “Higher" were all right behind Mr. Brightside with 2 votes. The other songs get no recognition because they lost!

ROUND 5!

Group A:
“Gone” by Switchfoot, 6 votes
“Pride (In The Name of Love)” by U2, 5 votes

Gone took the early lead, and kept it. U2 tried to catch up, but Switchfoot has a better reputation at this blog then U2, sadly. “Faint” by Linkin Park had 3 votes and was the closest to the top 2 songs. “Buffalo Soldier” and “All Star” had 2 votes and “Fell In Love With A Girl” and “The Immigrant Song” had 1 vote each. Everyone else is again a loser so they aren’t worth mentioning!

Group B:
“Time of Your Life” by Green Day, 8 votes
“She Will Be Loved” by Maroon 5 and “Otherside” by the Red Hot Chili Peppers, 6 votes

Again, Green Day took the early lead and kept it, which surprised me at first. Maroon 5 was in second for most of the time but the Peppers made a late, a very late comeback to tie them. All the attention was basically on those 3 songs and all the others tallied at maximum one vote.

There we are! We are updated in the Quest for The Best! Round 6 will be up soon! I will post the songs in the finals later!

// I suck

The past 24 hours have sucked and hit me hard.

I'm mad, i'm sad, and I don't know what at... anywho



Look at the beautiful blog! I changed a couple things (hope you didn't mind steph) and it really looks good! I need to get the quote back up and fix the picture profiles otherwise it looks great! Feedback would be great!

rock on

// A confusing last few days..

As the last days of spring break come to an end, we all suffer in our minds to see that school is returning. But is it really that bad...seeing the friends we didnt get to see? seeing teachers that some of us actually like? Having fun in classes but getting our education? i'd say we had our fun. But in my own opinion..I WANT MORE =D. Ahhh i dunno. We were supposed to go to Nick and Matt's house today....But i really want to go to the Carnival at lansdowne...it may be expensive..but maybe 10$ per person if well chipped in money for tickets...so we could get a package with like 100 tickets...but aw well.

And now i Work at mcdonalds on 3rd, as Rheba Classifies me. i am one of the "cool" people now because i have a job. haha. its awsome.

If i work Friday nights...please dont get me fired :'( .

~ChrisYue.

// Are you the now or never kind?

The last week has been interesting, to say the least. I've gone through a zillion emotions and happenings, I'm not even quite sure what to think anymore. I was upset at various points, and then I felt like royalty at others. But really, I just want to be normal again. I want to be able to talk and chill with friends like I used, without having to feel weird or awkward. But I'm starting to think maybe change isn't such a bad thing.

I was at UBC the other day and a professor spoke about relationships and exchange and how the relationships you create in the first two weeks of university are the most crucial. So even the people that I call bestfriends now, even if they aren't in a year (or even less), it'll be okay because university gives me a chance to recreate and rebuild everything in my life. Including those relationships. In no way am I saying I'm going to ditch my friends now for university folk. I'm just saying I'm warming up to the idea of change and feeling less scared about it. You guys. And the kids at RPC. I will NEVER leave you guys behind anywhere. I'll come back and harass you all even if I gotta drive in from another province. HAHA!

And those of you who mean the most to me? You know who you are. Maybe you'll read this, maybe you won't. But I love you two dearly. I thank you for the times we've had and the times yet to come. Cheesy, I know. Thanks for looking after me and for ignoring me when I needed it. I know I've put an insane amount of stress on both your lives and I apologize for that. Just know that whatever you dream of, wherever you go, I'm not that far off. A phone call, a bus ride. I pray every night for your well-being and happiness. I thank God he's placed such wonderful people in my life. I really could not ask for anything more.

Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well...
Here's to the night we felt alive,
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry,
Here's to good bye, tomorrow's going to come to soon.
Eve6 - Here's To The Night

// Great start to spring break!

My spring break has been awsome so far, everyday has been so jam packed and everything is so hectic but i love it! Cactus club tonite was a lot of fun :P and then our little sports thingy. and DABOT =D
but yes, My friend Ian came today, he seemed to be getting along with everyone pretty well. And then...Play dome on Thursday?! and then.....movie tommorow! and then wow...so busy =)
but yes. the weekend was awsome to.

Great start to spring break!!

// Discovered Discovery Days

I’m back, and I can honestly say that was an awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome awesome weekend!

Okay, maybe exaggerating but I loved it. I really enjoyed the atmosphere of the place, the people, the teachers, it was just really fun! Props to Andrew, who really went all out for us; driving us home and back, showing us around, letting us use his room and even offering his own bed! (I refused the invitation though) I got to chill with Dave too and met some crazy new people. The weekend was awesome. It cleared up doubt, brought back meaning into some of my ideas, planted new seeds in my head, made me think, made me breathe, made me clean.

Joel is a real great speaker, and I always love listening to him. Friday he really challenged me. Don’t you love a challenge that God gives you? He talked about the harvest and out of… great I can’t even remember, someone help me, but I know the verse. “The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few”. I love that! It has to be my new favorite verse! “The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few”. Criticism about can’t finding a job as a youth pastor was forgotten because the harvest is plentiful!!! Yes, the harvest is plentiful! The alter call people came up to pray for me and the entire time I was asking is this where you want me to be, and all around me I could here yes, yes, yes. Sure it was not only the people at the chapel, but just down on my knees I could feel it. Matthew, you are to go to summit and get the tools you need, because you need to start the harvest! AMEN! How awesome of a night it was!

Saturday was incredible too, although I was tired and almost fell asleep at Carl’s workshop; I regained energy and had a college game of hockey?!?!? Oh yes I sucked!

The hockey game was awesome too, we cheered for the rockets! I started to cheer for Vancouver once they scored, and they won too! So awesome! Crazy fight too! Yeah we killed him! (Hockey game fight, not me!) Although Dyllan did stab with nail clippers! Yes, it was an awesome weekend

I’ll be back Summit!

// Boom! Look at THis!

Holy Moly spogolty!

Major props to Steph who has now given the blog a major face lift that is better then any plastic surgery a celebrity has ever had! Major props! This post is mainly for Steph, and sure, for everyone else who wants to comment on the new looks...

The Banner: Looks really awesome, but as I've already told you Steph, it's big. It would be awesome if we could throw some more pictures into it and keep it the same size, and have a huge major banner with a lot of pictures that remind of us whatever!

Quote Thing: I've always loved my quote thing I've had and I've noticed it disappeared! I think Stehp said that the fortune cookie was the quote, but it was just a test. But that's not where I want the quotes! I've always liked them in the middle. Maybe the quote could be part of the banner? Maybe! I don't know.

The Columns: Could we possibly make the post column a bit bigger? And the side column a bit smaller? At least over to the right to make it look tidy and cool. Or am I asking too much? Also our picture profiles are very stretched, I’m guessing that's just a temporary problem. But the fonts look so plain and dull. Could we maybe spice up the side column with cool headers for the people, the past, recent posts, links, stuff like that? Oh! And the chat box grew too! It’s fat now!

Well, there’s my two cents!

// Not much going on today.

ALRIGHT. So. Here it is. It's a new layout for WHATEVER! It's a bit plain-ish, but I didn't want to get too extreme too quickly. HAHA. I'm still working out a few of the small details. If there's anything you guys (the members of this blog) don't like or do like or want to change, leave a comment. I'll take a look at it and see what I can do. Input! Give me input! (For those who are wondering, up above is a photo of the guitarist of Hillsong United that I took at YC 2004.)

Whistle while you work. I'm so stoked for work tonight. I get to work with Kevin. That kid is so amusing! Anyway, I'm off. I'll post something more interesting later tonight!

// Rocking Up The Joint

Whoa! Holy Band stuff Batman!

I just found out that U2 is in Vancouver, practising, and I love it. Rock stars such as U2 could chose any place in the world to practise! They've seen it all, they know it all. So where do they practise? Vancouver! What an honor! I really do live in an awesome city! So during Spring break I must go to GM Place and find U2!!!

Whoa! Talk about Edmontonians being spoiled! Not only is delirious at their YC, but Hillsong as well! Lucky guys! That's pretty crazy though!

Hillsong is here May 31st out in Langley, and I just found out right after Delrious plays at Historymaker, there at GM Place on the 24th. Crazy!

Sometimes I think to myself, especialy right now since I'm not doing well spiritually, that we only go to see Delirious play, or to go see Hillsong play. Should I, or we, really make a big fuss about which band is leading worship? Shouldn't we just love worship for what it is because it is our time to rock it up for God? Yet it's so much cooler when Delirious is there? or Hillsong? Am I just going to see a rockin' good band? Or is it okay to be stoked about Delirious playing? Am I looking at the wrong picture?

We need a new template! I don't like this one anymore. I like ranDOMinions template, but then I'll be stealing it... what to do what to do?

// Dont go to Honolulu!

Honolulu is a restauraunt in richmond. Do not go there for health hazord reasons.
Recently my friend jason's friend went there. and she ordered a steak that came with peas, carrots, and mushrooms and a baked potato. She cut opent he potato and found 3 maggots inside it.
She complained and they got a refund and since then havent been since.
i find that really disgusting =S lol.

but yah school is soon. just here for lunch having subway =D
I bid a good day.

// The man who thinks he can

If you think you are beaten, you are;If you think you dare not, you dont!If you'd like to win, but think you can't,It's almost a cinch that you wont.If you think you'll lose, you're lostFor out in the world we findSuccess begins with a fellow's will;It's all in the state of mind!If you think you're outclassed, you are;You've got to think high to rise.You've got to be sure of yourselfbefore you can win the prize.Life's battles don't always goTo the strongest or fastest man;But sooner or later the man who winsIs the man who thinks he can! Author ~ Walter D. Wintle

I hope that provides some inspiration for ya guys =D

// Male midwifes???

Greetings to all.
This coming Friday the "juniour grade" (I assume thats the equilavent year level I'd be in if i lived in Canada) has to go to various universities in Christchurch and be a student there for the day. So in maths, Mr Armstrong asked where we were going to go and what we were going to study:
"Williams?"
"Ummm CPIT, science."
"Willard?"
"CPIT, architectural design."
"Ross?"
"CPIT, midwifery."
"What, midwifery? Is that allowed?" He flicked through his sheets of paper. Apparently so he came to realise.

The class just laughed (all boys school so no girls to judge him).

20minutes later:
"oh no, im going to be the only guy there out of all the girls in year 12 in Christchurch!"
"Nah it'l be all good," I replied, "They'l love you."


"Lame!!!!!!!!"
Hey man it was funny at the time, it was one of those 'you have to be there moments'. However, i thought this sign in my form class that read "Reading club, afterschool today" was amusing. Oh well....

// Ah ha!

UGH. SO FRUSTRATED. Okay. So. There's this guy I know at school whose name is Nick. So. Nick. Nick made a phone call. To a radio station. AND GOT TWO FREE U2 TICKETS. Stupid Nick winning a contest. The photographer came and took his photo and stuff. Dang.

So guess what? I found a computer with internet! In a place where I won't get in trouble for posting on this! Or for checking e-mail! The computer in the recording studio in the music room has internet. I did not know this. But now I do. and I won't even get in trouble for it because I am SO IN THE GOOD BOOKS with the music teachers. RADICAL.

And yeah, they approved my guest application for boat cruise. And Dyllan promised he'd come, so I'm making him come. Radical even more!

I really have to go to the washroom. I'll be right back.

// A reason not to do drugs

At work there was a certain fellow, who well did lots of drugs. And over the years, his brain became...slow and stupid. He became one of those guys who would ask you the same question 4 times in one hour. Here is an example:
"hey whats that scar on your head? You get punched at the bar or something?" S___ Asked.
"Ah, its a birthmark!" Gin replied.
A confused look came over S____'s face. He looked into the air as if looking for a response to that statement.
Then it came; "Oh, when did you get that?"
"When I was born!" She replied, as if he were a complete retard.
So heres one reason not to go to Australia for seven years and work for drug dealers, and try the stuff your meant to sell.

// DaBot!

Yesterday at youth was really fun, and the praying was intenese, it was a great time. Momentum was a great band, and the guys are really funny. Not to mention they taught us a new game called Dabot!. U play with a water bottle and throw it around in a circle, but it has to flooowwww.

We will see them again at History Maker, And they promised us another game. so lets all look forward to that.

but thats it for now.

Dabot dabot lets go lets go, Dabot Dabot! lets flow lets flow!

// Chris has joined.

Matt, i have joined the blog. i am proud.



lol, so. Today in school was boring. I havent gotten the call back from mc'donalds yet...i dont think they are going to.
And i was looking at the new pictures on the board in front of the fellowship hall. and im not even there =( I know i was in 2 of the picture =(

not fair. =P

but yah. its the weekend. AND breakaway is tonite. its guna rock.

// Props To Ben

Ben, it was a pleasure having you on board for such a long time, and yes, he was one of the original 4 members. The truth is this blog needs posts, and with me out of the line up, we aren't getting posts. Ben, I enjoyed you're time here and I thank you for being apart of the blog. You will be missed, come and visit whenever you want!

On the other hand, Kasi posted once, so she gets no recognition, just the boot! As for Joel and Brendon, I'll work on that. Joel hasn't really posted much and I swear Brendon is dead... so we'll see. For now, welcome Rheba and Chris!

// Three Strikes I'm Out of It

When life throws you a curve ball, sit down and wait for your second chance. Or your third chance? Point it I have been kicked off my computer at home and my step mom is hard core cracking down. When will I be allowed back on? Probably not for a long time. Not to mention how I’m going to get the Breakaway video to someone who has a burner, and finish it tomorrow… life is getting a little annoying at the moment. Hopefully I get this job. They call today or tomorrow, if they call…

and note to chris and rheba, you'll probably become new members, just all depends on when I can get you guys on.

// I ain't no hollarback girl.

I've looked at the beauty in your face,
It feels like the sun with its warm embrace.
I've stared at the colours in your eyes,
I'm left feeling high and paralysed.

And the world is turning,
But it just ain't learning.
If they would only see what I see...

'Cause you're so fine,
When the walls fall in,
And take me by surprise...
You're my life line.
Fine by Steve

A fitting love song for such a fine Saviour. Last night's service was pretty intense. Those of you who were there will (hopefully) agree. With God's love... I never have to go through the junk that I go through with regular love. "And now I've found the greatest love of all is mine." How true is that?! That one line made me start to tear up. I wasn't shaken up completely, but it was a sad sort of calmness. It was awesome just to sit on the ground and listen to Annick sing. Just some time to think about things, life, love.

The last few days have been frustrating. Happy, but frustrating. It's like, my life has rewound about six months back into the past. Back to the summer. Anyway. I'm officially Rachel. Those of you who know what I'm talking about, hurrah. If not, please don't press for more info. It's best that not that many people know.

On the plus side, I figure out my boat cruise guest applications? Kind've.

// Made me feel alive again.

I desperately need an energy boost. I have nothing left in me. Red Bull, protein drinks, caffeine, pop, ANYTHING. I need a nap. I'll probably take a nap before the show tonight. IT'S CLOSING NIGHT. And then there's the post part at Boston Pizza. Not sure if I want to go out or go home and sleep. Or go visit Mr. Andy Roy at work. I have no idea. I'm just too tired to tell anymore. Can you tell? Oi. I'm just glad tonight is the last show.

I know I've talked about this a lot already and most of you are probably sick of it, but I keep stressing about it and it's frustrating me. I really, really need to decide where I'm going to school. If UBC accepts me, everything would be fantastic. I could stay here and go to a good school and do what I love to do. I wouldn't have to deal with moving and leaving people behind and everything and ah. I want to scream sometimes.

I rarely do this because I'm stubborn and like being independant, but I'm going to ask for prayer. I've been going through rows with my dad and they never turn out well. We just drop the topic only to pick up a day or two later. And it's always about the same things. And not to mention the school thing. And me not getting any sleep. So please, just pray for me? Thank you.